as the title say, it's my birthday today. 18th birthday to be exact.

and so far, i kinda like this day. it's not like my usual birthday where i don't invite my friends over.

this time, i have a few of them come over. about four of them, they were supposed to be more but they couldn't come.

i don't really like parties or any social gatherings at all, not even my own birthday.

i received gifts, some gave me money. but that's not why i like this day.

yesterday i was having a bad day, i cried. for the last day of being 17, i cried. not because it was gonna be my birthday, but because of something more personal. and i thought today was gonna be worst.

but i'm a person who likes to be alone, i don't approach anybody first. all my friends approached me first, i never made the first move.

my four friends that came to my house, i didn't invite them, they invited theirselves. it's just funny that for once, people knew what i really wanted. how it was automatic for them to go to my house because it was my birthday and they were my friends. i was too shy to approach them, i even told my parents that i won't be inviting anyone over. but the plan changed, because the day before yesterday, they told me that they were coming.

it made me feel relief, i don't know why but it really did. maybe i was just really happy that for once, i was at my birthday celebration where i enjoyed it. we were actually at a separate house. the other guest where at our house and we were separated from them, i didn't have to be awkward with the guests that i don't actually know and pretend to smile and be happy that it was my birthday. instead, i was with my friends, i was comfortable with them the whole time and we enjoyed ourselves even if it was just us five.

on a side note, i was supposed to update all three of my fan fics as a birthday special, but i think it would have to wait till tomorrow. i think i'll only be able to update one of two of them, if i push the update to be today.

happy birthday to me, even though i have peter pan syndrome XD

this is my first blog post here as well, and i don't really care about grammar and typos anymore (just for today tho)

and now i'm at a legal age and i can't commit any crime without getting jailed, well i can still do them since i study the law but what the heck YOLO XD

oh and yes if you ever got to read this, you can talk to me here about anything :)