People usually see my outer appearence and think I'm cold and strong. Well, Im the complete opposite. I love people without knowing them and I'm as soft as a marshmellow. My family knows some of that. People, everyone thinks I'm strong. I'm not strong, Im human. Just because It's hard for me to show how i feel doesnt mean Im weak. Im scared. People judge me, everyone hurts me, but I dont do anything. I always have to show an emotionless face and move. Even when tears are at the brim of my eyes I cant let them fall! I wont ever let my tears out. Making a promise like this since before I can remember, feeling like a liar because people dont know the real me. It hurts. I can never tell anyone how i feel even the person i am closest to. I put on a mask and Im too afraid to take it off. Call me a coward, yes I admit it. Say I'm a weakiling, yes I am. Hit me, go ahead. That's how I always thought of my life. It hurts, it hurts so much. I'm a natural outcast but putting on that mask makes me feel happy, but taking it off and remembering the day with it on just hurts. It hurts how much of a coward I am. It hurts how hard I have to try and be happy. But what hurts the most is not being able to face people with my real personality. Thats why I'm thankful for having all of you as my friends.