This is my first actual time writing a blog in 10 months...it's crazy how time goes by so quickly. I trust that all of you who actually read this and remember who I am (ahaha) are doing well and have had a great 2013 so far.

Initially I hadn't planned on logging in, but both of my girls are in bed and I can't sleep. So I thought why not.

Currently, I am living in Levittown, New York where a few of my cousins live. We moved out of Kyler's relative's place in Chicago since it was super hard trying to find a place to live that suited our needs, plus there is a lot of violence there that we just didn't want our girls to grow up in or get used to seeing and whatnot so we decided to leave Chicago for a place much safer. 

And speaking of our girls, Aspen is a little two year old now. She just celebrated her birthday June 6th. She's still the diva she grew up to be, and that makes everything much more interesting around the house. I don't see her being much of a girly girl or tomboy, she's a bit of a mixture now. Pheonix is going to be one year old here in about two weeks. She's my chubby baby out of the two girls. Lol, she get's that part from her dad. Kyler was a chubby baby as well. Since I'm very close to my Korean culture and love everything about Korea, I try to push it all to my girls. They watch a lot of Korean child cartoons and I'm teaching them as much Korean that I'm able to. Aspen still loves K-Pop, more than Pheonix does. Pheonix never really got as attached to K-Pop as Aspen did.

I don't have any currect pictures of the girls :( I'll see if I can find a good recent picture of them one of these days.

Also, unfortunately, Kyler and I did recently suffer a miscarriage. It really did surprise both of us because I'm on birth control (which is supposed to last for another 2 years or so) and we weren't expecting any pregnancy nor were we even attempting to have another child - we were taking every precaution possible. We didn't know of the pregnancy until we found out about it at the hospital. And even more, we were shocked to learn that I was nearly 4 months along and didn't have any kind of weight gain, no baby bump, cravings or anything (maybe some ankle swelling and abdominal pains mistaken for regular cramping). I won't go into much details about the miscarriage...but I do still feel a sense of loss and grief over it, but I'm working through it the best I'm able to. 

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well and I'm sorry I'm not able to be here. I do miss all my friends I made here. I do still check in every once in awhile, but my log-ins are fairly short and sporadic.
 

~ Kate