The first group I was properly introduced to back in 2008, when Mirotic first came out. A friend introduced this guy to me that she thought was ‘’beautiful’’ and ‘’hot’’ and how his voice, body and face is so amazing. Kim Jaejoong was his name.

Come to think of it, 5 years ago, I was like 12. Or 13. But boy, he was, no – still is – perfect. Back then, I was still interested in the Taiwanese boy group that was really popular at that time, called Fahrenheit. I wasn’t too interested in TVXQ, until my friend kept forcing me to listen to their songs from the Mirotic album, and watch the music videos. I remember someone else caught my eye then – Jung Yunho.

I began to search more and more about the group – and very soon, I found myself completely forgetting about whatever Taiwanese group I was into. Since then, I became part of the ‘’World’s Largest Fanclub’’ as stated in the Guinness Book of Records – Cassiopeia, and until today, I am still a proud Cassie.

TVXQ has unconsciously, become a big part of my life. Every single member holds great significance in my life. I fully acknowledged this when I was fortunate enough to go to their 3^rd Asia Tour Concert – Mirotic in Beijing. To be honest, it was the first concert where I couldn’t actually see the members on stage because the stadium was so big, and I was just too far away. But that concert was – if not the most – one of the most unforgettable concerts I have ever been to. Just knowing that I was breathing the same air, another step closer to the stage they were standing on, uniting with strangers around me just for those 5 men was already a wonderful experience. I honestly had so much fun and I will never forget everything that happened that night.

So when the lawsuit broke out that same year, I really can’t describe with words how I felt back then. At that time, I was only into K-pop and TVXQ for a year. I couldn’t imagine what the other Cassies were feeling – especially the ones who have been there for them ever since their debut in 2003, or the ones who supported them for a much longer time compared to myself.

For 3 years and 4 months, we waited. TVXQ was out of the music industry for almost 3 years, until the news broke out saying that Yunho and Changmin were to return to the music scene as a duo. It was then, people lost hope.

‘’It’s over. Just like H.O.T., TVXQ is over.’’

For a very long time, I always had ‘’always keep the faith’’ in my mind. For TVXQ, for Cassies, for myself, I wanted to ‘’always keep the faith’’.

Then when the news of JYJ was formed, and the lawsuit was finally said to be over after such a long battle, I told myself I had to accept that they have broken up. Although many fans were happy that the long battle on court was finally over, we all acknowledged what Junsu also said: ‘’realistically, it’s going to be difficult to promote as TVXQ again.”

‘'So what if the world has forsaken you? We would stand behind you, and renounce the world with the five of you.’’ - Cassiopeia
 

Jaejoong,

It seems a little unbelievable that you are actually the eldest amongst them all. You’re the one who’s left me the biggest impression since I was first introduced to you. Now that I see you as a JYJ member, you’ve gotten a lot skinnier. I guess 5 years has been quite some time and you’ve aged too. But that’s normal. Don’t worry because to me, you’re still perfect as always. Please eat more and rest more. I hope you’ve cut down on your drinking and smoking habits as well. Kim Jaejoong, you’ve truly matured as a real man now. I’m so proud to hear you making the music you like with your first solo album, and I hope you are coping well with Junsu and Yoochun. I truly wish you all the best in the unknown future, and hope you can do even greater things in life. Please don’t ever forget TVXQ, as inked on your back. I love your laugh, so I hope you can laugh more again. Laugh like you used to, laugh because you want to and like to. Smile more, because your happy face makes us happy too. Last but not least, thank you. Thank you, Kim Jaejoong. I love you.

Yunho,

You are the most fantastic leader. You’re always the best role model – kind, yet strong. Sometimes it seems like even if the world ends, or the sky falls down, you’re the one who can still stand firm. You’re so genuine, so enthusiastic and passionate about what you do in life, and I am honestly amazed. I know the lawsuit must have hurt you a lot, and as the leader, it was as if you had to endure it no matter what. For those you care for, you had to endure it. I know you went through so many hardships to become today’s U-Know Yunho, and trust me, we are all so proud of you who has come this far. Please remember that you are human too, and humans all make mistakes. It’s alright to do something wrong, and don’t be afraid of what others think of you. Love is when you accept everything about someone – their good things, their bad things – I can accept that about you, and I know I am not the only one. Thank you, Jung Yunho. Thank you for coming this far and for protecting TVXQ. Please continue to hold on – for yourself, for Cassiopeia, and for your 4 other members. Fighting, our beloved leader. I love you.

Junsu,

You've always been the most kind-hearted, the happiest one, and the most innocent one to believe the existence of Santa Claus. You like your own weird English, and we applaud you for it. Although you’ve always mentioned that you wanted to be a soccer player, every time you sing, your bones and blood have already merged with the stage. Junsu, we all know you belong to the stage. Korea’s best singer, the voice of Asia – your voice never fails to give me shivers. As much as I love your dolphin squeals and laughs, you look the most charming when you are singing. Although you haven’t properly acted in dramas like Jaejoong and Yoochun, your popularity hasn’t dropped one bit. After hearing your solo albums, I truly felt the hard work and sincere effort you put into the songs. Please don’t stop singing and don’t stop performing. Maybe some might think you’re not handsome enough, but really, you have the best talent. Kim Junsu, thank you. Please continue to smile and laugh more, keep supporting your hyungs and don’t ever forget Changmin (who was, or probably still is, the only disciple of Xiahism) and Yunho. I love you.

Changmin,

Our little prince and beloved maknae. To be honest, you always looked like your hyungs. Just like an oppa, you continued to protect TVXQ with Yunho. I’m so glad you found your passion through singing, so glad that you found a reason to continue singing. I’m so thankful to have had the chance 2 months ago to listen to you sing live right in front of me, and the moment I met eyes with you (I am actually so sure I did!) who was only a mere one meter away from me, I confirmed my love for you. Although you never really mention it, I know you see Cassies as a big part of your life. When I found a video of you saying saranghae to us on Strong Heart, I was so touched. Changmin, you may be too shy to say it, but we all know how you feel. And sometimes, actions do speak louder than words. The effort you put into performing on stage just for us, we know how much you love singing. 5 years ago, you still seemed like the baby everyone took care of, despite your tall height. Now, you’ve grown up so well and I’m really happy for you. Shim Changmin, thank you. Please don’t stop singing, don’t stop protecting TVXQ and don’t forget the hyungs who took care of you. I’m sure those 3 miss you a lot. (We miss them too, of course.) I love you.

Yoochun,

To be honest, I never took much notice of you since the beginning. Although I occasionally laughed at your English, and smiled because of your behavior, I never had much thought about you. But to me, you were just as important as the other 4 members. Without you, TVXQ is not complete. I know you are very passionate about singing as well, and when I’ve recently started to watch Rooftop Prince, I am so proud of your acting too. Even my mother, who never noticed you amongst the group, has started to like you a lot more after seeing your acting. Yoochun, you did it. You’re doing so well right now, and I’m just so proud to see you winning awards and becoming even more successful. Park Yoochun, thank you. Thank you for working so hard in every way you possibly can, please continue to press on with what you need to do, whether it is singing or acting, and I promise to give you endless support. Stay strong with Jaejoong and Junsu, and please don’t ever forget about Yunho and Changmin too. I’m sure they are supporting you from afar as well. I love you.

‘’I believe, this love will be forever. Even if the heaven and earth may break; the river water may dry up, looking back, we had once spent a night when all of us shouted the particular names together, telling them, the time shall pass, the winds and clouds shall change unexpectedly, but we will forever be their strongest reliance, the warming, yet formidable strength behind them. ‘’ – Cassiopeia

Once I stepped into this fandom, I knew I’d stay here forever. I promise to always keep the faith, and just like the rest of Cassiopeia, we will always be by your side too.