I've sort of been on hiatus now for a while, I can only get on to read a few things I've subscribed to for maybe 20 mins before I need to roll over and go to bed. I have good reason to though. 
 
  I have had so much going on the past few months (everyones sob story I swear). My father nearly had a last month and has to miss work a lot to stay at home and rest. You guys it is so scary to think of losing my dad, I'm such a daddy's little girl and I've never lost anyone important to me so it really chills me to think by the time I'm 25 he may have already passed on. 

  I have classes starting back in three weeks, I'm scrambling to get things together that I will need for college i.e. Student ID's, parking passes, books, stressful collegey stuff and my car is being stoopid and has been in the shop for almost 3 weeks (WTF AM I PAYING THEM FOR?!)

 To be the cherry on top of all my stress, my aunt had surgery on her knees so shes in a wheelchair and already needing help getting around but then a blood clot formed in her leg (if you haven't seen one before do not google, its so horrid) so I'm either sitting with my aunt and tending to her or my sister is, and when my sister is it means I have to watch my two year old neice. Don't get me wrong, I love watching Tarzan but not 50 times. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD IT MAKES ME CRY OKAY!!!

 Oh but wait it gets better. My boyfriend of one year decided that we should move on from each other. Without going in to detail its was basically because he didn't support me wanting to be a psychologist and moving to Korea. I would never be so selfish as to ask him to pack his and go with me, its already going to be hard when I do but it'd have been really nice if the one person I felt completed me, encouraged me to purse my dreams. Its really disturbing to love someone so much that you'd debate your dream just to stay with them and live a mediocre life but you never got to tell them that because they tell you they want to see other people and not even a week later 'other people' is one of his co-workers. This makes me question any trust I had for him, like was he really working late those nights? 

 So yeah, this is why I've stopped updating and participating a whole lot. I am really sorry to those of you that really looked forward to all my updates. I could cry from how much I've dissapointed but I am really so tired of crying now. I am going to swallow the bitter pill of reality and immerse myself in school and taking care of myself. No more dating, not too much of a social life, I am just going to finish my last years of college, get to Korea and start living life there. 

 I know it won't be butterflies and daisies the whole way and I'm sure I'll have numerous mental breakdown but I really have so many friends on here that I want to keep up with so you will still see me around.  I may even type a one shot up super fast as a creative outlet.

                                       If you got the end of this thank you so much<3333333 *bows* 

                              I don't really know how to end a post this personal so I will leave you with a really inspirational quote.