I doesn't know if I ever have mine but clearly not who everyone expect it is. A my first love?As if. Seriously I f-ing hate that guy because of him I missed the chance to have start a wonderful relationship with R. What's wrong with dating your bestfriend ex? I see non. If things doesn't work out with me and my boyfriend, it doesn't mean it would be the same with my bestfriend and him right? Or vice versa. Plus can his depressed fangirl stop bothering me. I don't even want to be for ends with him, not even on Facebook. Urgh!!

p.s In all honestly I actually wrote an essay about mine before but it just disappeared and urgh, I'm too lazy to type it once more. And now it seem more of  hatred message rather than talking about first love. And I honestly think I have a really pathetic love life,this and many more.