I don't know, it just lately I want to write but lazy also the other reason was, I dont want to unfocus to something that I write (especially multi-chapter which now I'm focus on RasAO because I want to finish it) and yet, my friend hasn't finish beta-ing my SuChen my mind been blown up by it....

I don't know why I'm telling it, my OTP for Bangtan was Jikook (Jimin/Jongkeok) and LC9 RasAO //lol 

now I'm waiting 17 to debut, even I already had OTP Jisol (Jisoo/Hansol) and JiHan/Jungsoo (Junghan/Jisoo)

Lately my life been to much focus over something that I don't know, something that didn't made feel creative nor artistic... And yet muse gone, since I feel like I still doesn't know when my passion will come or when I will find it, you know I kinda depressed over my dream even right now I don't had one, I just want fun but fun was priced with something that we didn't to :U 

the only thing that keep calming me right now was reading and sleeping even I always do it, sometimes I remember Adam Lambert lyrics for "I wish that this will be over, there's plenty time to sleep when we die" but, I don't know I like sleeping.... Or it because it was my method to escape reality that hurting to much for me.

Tbh, in my life I'm just waiting for someone said 'thank for being born' and yet never one soul say it, I don't even knew why even it was short word, but the word give an impact... I just want that one of my family saying that even it's hard to approve it...

My Internet its same as my real life, the more you know the more scare... You know I've been scare toward the truth it self, ive been scare toward reality even I don't even know who I'm anymore, I just think everything is fine. Even I know everything doesn't fine, it kinda depress me so much for such a young age like me...

Also, lately I've been studying anatomy because I'm planning to crate LC9 art Fanbook which now I already made two sketch, even what I need is 19 sketch (and still searching for guest artist too) 

I just want to make my last year as middle school student worth it :u