I don’t normally share my thoughts or place my emotions out in the open, but some events from the past few months have made me want to use the safety valve approach so that my sanity stays intact.

I am an introvert and do not mingle much, I may never initiate any conversation but won’t make the other feel as they are talking to a wall. Long back I decided that I will not reveal anything about me, so that people can use that information against me. So there is actually no one that knows my secrets, I do occasionally share but never to a single person and never fully the extent of the information.

But in the past few months I have been bugged to change my personality and become more outgoing, I shared stuffs that I world not normally and pretended to be genuinely interested in a lot of crappy conversations. But these have just validated my paranoia that people do use the information they have against you.  

There a lot of jerks that think that they know me and think that have the right to interfere in my life and give unsolicited suggestions. I hate them and think that I must stay true to myself and go back to how I was. All these acting to actually liking jerks have left me disoriented as to who I am really.