I realized a couple days ago that I never told you guys about my life in school. And a couple of my friends are asking about that too.

For most of my life, I have been bullied and harassed in school. Elementary, Middle, and High School. All my school years were horrible. Boys called me stupid, retarded, and ugly. Girls would me things like , , , etc. I was also pushed around alot by other people. In elementary school, kids would never play with me because they thought of me as a sissy or that I'm a disabled kid or something. And some girls would become my friend then they would betray or use me to get their other friends jealous. When I make a 'friend', they played with me for only a day and then the next day, they would ignore me and call me names.

By the time middle school came, I thought everything would be different, but I was wrong. A bunch of girls called me a , , , or that I'm ugly and no one will like me. And everytime I try to talk to a teacher about it, they wouldn't do anything to stop it. My self esteem was getting lower and lower everyday. So, I started to stand up for myself but that didn't work because the next people kept on saying that I'm trying to get attention. I would go home and cry and cry. I would tell my mom what happened and she will do her best to stop the constant bullying. I was always afraid to come to school. I would go to school and people didn't want to be my friend anymore. And I started to feel lonely, like people never wanted to talk to me.

And finally high school started and it gotten worse. Everyone would ignore me and not talk to me anymore. Everyday when I go to lunch, I would always sit alone by myself. I watch other people eat with their friends, ignoring people around them who are sitting by themselves. I would usually cry after school. I hated to be alone. Most of the time, I wouldn't say a word for the whole entire day. So, I tried asking a girl who was nice to me in one of my classes and she said okay. So, I was so excited that first time in my life someone was going to sit next to me. When lunch came, I waited for her and I saw her coming and I called her name and she just gave me a smug look, ignored me, and walked away. She went straight to her friends. I couldn't believe it! After school, when I went home I cried my eyes out because of the way people treated me.

And a fact about of my life is that I felt depressed and alone. I once thought about killing myself but I thought to myself that it won't do anything. So, I stayed strong and now I'm a high school graduate and I have many k-pop friends and 6 best friends! :D