Now that I am sober and right-minded (questionable), I wanted to offically say thank you to all the people who wished me a happy birthday, despite my inebriated ranting. ><  I will try to respond to each one later, but I just got back from my appointment and am not feeling too well.

The CT scan turned into an MRI instead, which the equivalent to about fifty minutes in a coffin during a thunderstorm.  =_=  I thought of SHINee and tried my best not to freak out, especially when they put a cagelike mask over my face (Count of Monte Cristo~?) and injected dye into my veins, which made my mouth taste really weird and my arm to go cold... I was already shaking pretty bad and suffering from a bout of vertigo, so that didn't help.

Anyway, benefits of SHINee + chronic fatigue/exhaustion is that I was actually able to fall alseep during certain sounds. That, and I kept thinking how funny it was that my mom (a Blinger) called Jonghyun a 'Micro-machine' the night before. >_<  She's great.

I won't hear anything for at least two days, so who knows. The suspected area of "foul play" is the pituitary  gland, which can hide microscopic tumors pretty well. If they find any in there, surgery will most likely be the next route, and the idea of BRAIN SURGERY, no matter how big or small or even if it's not cancerous, just freaks the out of me - 'cause it's, like, my in' brain. lol. (I might not use it all the time, but I definitely need it).

Anyway... sleepy time for me now. I will try to reply later. No promises though - if I don't, please know I really am super appreciative of you all. My life would be so boring and pale without colorful, y Shawols to share it with.

Loves,

Melanie