I am posting not because i am fangirling over exo's wolf drama version. but its me. just me. i think im paranoid. i think i siao already. like honestly nowadays i cant differentiate between what is right and what is wrong. im keeping long nails and pulling my hair and.. just self harm (no i dont cut myself, unless you count me peeling my lips then bleeding then maybe, idk)

IM JUST SO FKING FRUSTATED IDK WHY LIFE HAS JUST BEEN AT ITS WORST

I CAME LATE FFIVE TIMES AND I HAD TO DO DETENTION AND BEING THE GOOD STUDENT I AM I FRIGGIN DESCRIBED EVERY SINGLE FKING THING WHY IM LATE, WHICH FKING INCLUDES ME BEING DISTRACTED WITH MY PHONE AND LAPTOP

AND THE FRIGGIN DM ALSO ASKED FOR MY PARENTS NO AND BEFORE I EVEN REACHED HOME MY PARENTS ALR FKING KNOW ABT IT

SO NOW WHAT? MY PHONE IS BEING CONFISCATED AND IM ALLOWED TO USE THIS LAPTOP UNTIL 10.30 (20 MIN FROM NOW, I think i appreciate that) AND IDK WHY IN THE TOILET I COULDNT STOP CRYING ;'( I keep on telling my self to stay strong, i did the right thing, maybe it would help. 

MAYBE. and idk i start crying all over again. like when it was dinner my eyes were like friggin red and its still swollen now.

tbh.. sad to say.. idk what to do with my life anymore.. i thought my family wanted me to be happy, so i listened to songs.. but they wanted me to stop.. so.. without my phone.. are you saying that.. im going anti-social? like FKKK LIFE i feel like i dont deserve to live.

but then again.. i believe.. god gave me a second chance, because He loves me. maybe some of you are free thinkers but.. really, i think.. this should wake me up.. i will prove that i can do well! :') lol idk why im still tearing up

i think if you read this and comment any suggestions what i should do... i would be very grateful.. :) thank you kamsa habnida xie xie ni terima kasih syukran jazeelan (lol idk any other) i love you saranghaeyo wo ai ni saya sayang kamu uhibbuka te amo

whatsoever.. hahahha.. i think this is where i can express my feelings.. thank you.. my friends :) or cousins xD

and i still havent finish watching the drama version T.T only until the girl come out of the bus

OMFG LUHAN

i only watched the chi version tho xDD