If i said i'm not sad

That would be a lie

Even i wear the smile

But still deep inside i want to cry

Just could keep walk

Life and try not to give up

Ignored the pain

And learn to be strong

Sometimes maybe i look like crazy

Laugh like everythings was just fine

Smile like nothing happen

Or crying like idiot and make stranger peoples around me though i got dust into my eyes

Daydreaming inside the bus while listening songs from mp3 list

Because i also didn't know what should i do....

Sometimes there are a flash of mind to end all of it into forever sleep

Sometimes feel wrong to give up just like that without wait until the real end

My grandma said cry not a sin

But my mom said cry won't change anything

But now they are not here anymore

To whom i should ask?

To whom i should share?

That is why i start to write

Burn all the sorrow into the ink on the empty paper

Just like this...

I really miss you

My childhood time.

When i still could get piggyback from my grandma

When life was really easy

Without problems without sadness

Sleep,play,laugh,reading and listening and smile

Just simple like that

Have warm hug and smile from my old grandma embrace

But now all won't be same anymore

No more days like that

Everythings already change

Happiness just a dream

I really miss you my simple happiness