I just learned yesterday that one of my favorite authors in AO3 died. I can't even believe it. I mean, yes, it's been four months since she last updated. All the time, I thought that maybe she was just busy, just like me but.... the news really shocked me. Hell, I can't even call it news for she is dead for two months now and me, one of her readers and friend only learned yesterday. I was ashamed and full of guilt, I mean, every week, I did left a review on her stories telling her to "Update soon or I'll creep into your house and kill you".

T.T

My God, And I only learned the fact that she's dead cause of her close friends and also a writer replied to one of my 'kill you' comments and said that I should not make fun of people who are dead. And I was like.... she's dead. I didn't believe it at first so I asked around, her sister who was a writer in FFN confirmed it. She have many many on going fics that I really love and she's dead? Meaning, those fics will never be finish? I cried, really. I go to our email history and read all of her replies and I cried.

Even though I don't know her in real life, I'm still affected of her death. Not only for a fact that I lost a great writer and great works of fiction. But also a friend.

Seriously... I am so sad right now..

But I'm thankful, at least, for that one author who told me that she's dead. At least I can pray to her soul to be at peace.