Today in Malaysia is 30th June 2013

Exactly on this date last year I fell in love with Onew

Today marks exactly one year of me being Onew's fangirl

Happy fanniversary to me :)

I hope I still feel the same about him next 30th June ^_^

 

In this one year I have felt a lot about Onew. Total hatred, overwhelming love and just total support for him.

I think I'm a huge Onew's fan, but I know there are a lot of Onew's fan out there than me, and they've liked him

for a lot longer than I have.

I've seen him being in a slump - and about the rumor of him and Jjong being in a fight, and that made the whole SHINee members isolated him during Japanese promotion during Sherlock era.

I've seen him smile for the camera but as soon as he thought no cameras was on him, he immediately stopped smiling, and immediately fell into deep thoughts

I've seen s teasing him and his dorkiness and his silly wordplays, but I love them all and I know very well how smart he is for always having something to think about, and I myself love wordplays and puns, and I think me and Onew are gonna probably bore each other out with wordplays lol

I've seen his transformation from being derpy to beastly (yeah that's the word I'm gonna choose). I witness his sangtae slowly disappearing.

I witness Dream Girl gave him the boost of confidence that he needs. I love his cocky smile and confidence. I'm so glad he's no longer in a slump.

I think whenever he's in a slump I'll be here, silently cheering and crying for him in front of my computer... I'll be his biggest emotional support, mentally sending positive vibes and good zen to Korea to him.

I'll always root for him, and I'm happy to be a fan of someone so beautiful like him.

He may never knew my existence, and after a year, I gave up all hopes and fantasy to make him notice me. I'm just glad he hasn't changed over the years of him being an artist.

 

In fact, if we're under different circumstances, or alternate reality, he would probably become an engineer or an architect, that was his original ambition. I think I would still fall for him.

It's complicated when you're in love with an artist who has no idea about your existence. You just can't help it. No. I'm not delusional. I don't fantasize about meeting him and him falling in love with me. I know that's outrageous. But his personality through fancams, and interviews, and variety shows make me fall for him. I know there's truth between Onew's facade.

 

Well, I know if people read this they're gonna react so distastefully towards my blogpost but whatever today is my first fanniversary I'm allowed to pour my heart out!

 

I hope Jinki keeps being successful, and make his parents happy. He has a beautiful soul, I hope he'll gain spiritual uplifting, and by that, I don't think I should elaborate more. It'll me my secret by what I mean.

 

Hmmm in a year of me being his fan, I have received these things from him:

1) He personally looked at me and smiled at me at SMTown Singapore in 2012.

2) He waved back when I waved at him, during SMTown ending

3) He nodded at me before walking to another moshpit. (Smtown)

4) He glanced at my signage I made for him. He glanced three times. (GDA moment)

5) He stayed right in front of me and didn't move, even when other artists were moving all about the stage (GDA)

6) He danced goofily in front of me (GDA)

7) He fumbled with his mic cord right in front of me, but no fancams caught him. My fancam (@Kpossible21's fancam) caught him, so basically I'm the only one who knows/notices about this incident.

 

Who knows, on mysecond year of liking him I might get to meet him in person? :) I'm waiting for the day, I'll meet him calmly. Because I don't see him as just a bias or an artist. I like him like a girl likes a boy. I can't help it.

 

Don't judge me :D

 

Happy fanniversary to me and Jinki! <33333