WELL ELLO ELLO! *WINK WINK* 

Haaiiiii guuiiiisseeeee. 

SO! Being the badass (Idiot.) THAT I SO AM. I cut a full fringe. On myself. 

I cut my hair normally cuz I can't be bothered to go to the hair dressers. Aha yeaaarrr I'mm soooo lazzaaiii. 

So i trim my hair and stuff. So yesterday. I'm like HEY! Why don't i cut a full fringe/bangs. So i asked my friend she was like YEAH TOTES! U should go for it. So I did it. 

HOLY CRAP. THAT WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!! 

It isn't horrible. But i DO NOT. DO. NOT. Suit it. I mean urg. I look DIS,GUS.TING. 

AHH! FML. But then i'm like You know what! It's just hair! It'll grow longer eventually and my head hair grows fast. Like fringes and stuff so i'm like. Aha, no biggie! I'm trying to be in a optimistic mood, and always look at the bright side of things. BOY IS THAT HARD! LOL

OKAI! Now, I did my 1st person narrative thing for my english assesment. I'm in year 10 cause my school starts the years earlier. So in other schools, i would still be in year 9 XD anywho, where basically doing all our english exams, so we can prepare for next year and next year we won't be as stressed, so last week, i did my 1st person narrative. 

We got our results today. I'm in top set, so i'm expected to get bs-a*'s. 

I got a D. 

I felt. Like UTTER. . I wanted to crawl into a ball. Now, I know many of you will be like OH MA GAWD MAN! Why are you like getting so upset about that!? It's not even that bad, you shouldn't even worry (we can redo it on monday) so you know. Stop being a baby. I know some of u are thinking this :P 

It means alot to me. Even though i shouldn't make a big deal out of it. I felt utterly . So miss was like 

"Everybody who got 12 or below, go outside so i can talk to u indivisually. So i went, and she's telling everybody good and bad points, 

"Your story was good it was just your SPAG (spelling, punctuation, grammer etc)", I'm horrible at that . I went back inside, and I felt like crying. One of my closest friends was like "What did you get ?", I just looked away from her. Then she came up to me while I sat down and i was SO CLOSE in NOT. crying. but she had to say. 

"Are you okay ?", My tears fell out. I tried to hide them with my headscarf. ONe BIG rule about me that most people ignore. 

When I'm feeling pretty . DO NOT EVER! EVER. Ask me. If i'm okay. Because I WILL. cry. If I'm about to cry. Just don't talk to me and leave me the alone, i'll be back to normal in a couple of minutes so just DON'T talk to me. I HATE. Crying infront of people. 

I guess the reason why I felt worse was because i SOO. badly want to teach english in Korea, and if i'm already bad at my SPAG. how the hell am I gonna teach english !? Thats the thing that really hit me and I wanted to cry some more but i kept it in, through the whole day. 

Miss said that people below C, she'll call parents in. My parents will ANNIHALATE ME. 

My friends got better than me, and I'm not jealous. I'm happy for them. But I've ALWAYS felt that the people closest around me are always smarter, and prettier than me annd that makes me feel pretty dumb and . I've ALWAYS, felt dumb around my friends. I try not to act like I care but it really kills me inside. I try, and try to be atleast on the same level and I just can't. I'm surprised I'm in top set for maths, science and english. Because I swear to you, my close friend whose in second set for science is wayyy smarter than me. I've stopped trying. Yes, I admit its probably all my fault because I shouldn't be put down but. 

*Sigh* *No idea what to day* 

I think I'm a bad friend too. I feel like a outsider, i feel like I just annoy them. I really wonder why I have friends ? I don't even feel like they're my friends. Just people I know. I don't like talking to them anymore. 

Guise, I don't know what to do anymore. 

...

:) 

WELL! LETS ALL EAT CAKE AND BE GAY TOGETHER! because I know thats what you want to do ;) *wink* 

Atleast. I can improve my narrative so meh. 

STOP BEING DEPRESSED WHILE READING THIS *Shoves cake in your mouth* 

OK! LET ME TELL U A FUNNY STORY! 

Some girl in my art class was doing observational drawing and she was drawing a can of 'coke' but she didn't finish the word of, 

So some dude was like. 

"MISS! Whose can of cok is this ?", AND WE BURSTED OUT LAUGHING! XD XO 

BTW. Who watched ADVENTURE TIME!! :3 

xoxo