on monday, i thught this would be the best wek ever.

im gonna get a new computer 'cuz this one is almost ready for a dumpster and i just had my confirmation *protestant christian*.

nothing was able to get me down.

but reality just isn't like that.

my bestfriend got together with a friend of mine, sure, im really happy. but it just seems a bit rushed. i don't want them to break up and i don't want them to be together as well. i don't think they fit. it's just weird.

they rushed in their relationship like a train into a suicidal person. *sorry for that, but it's true*

just because the boy couldn't hold in his teenage hormones and kissed her, they got together. and she was half asleep too.

anyways.

my school grades are f'ed up.

i barely got away with a c in everything.

my lungs are acting up because of my asthma.

and just now i wanted to go swimming for a damned sport thing *have to swim a certain distance in a certain time*

AND

the bus i went in didn't even go there.

it seems that the bus line only goes there every two hours.

lovely.

just lovely.

so when i noticed it wouldn't go there, i had to call my dad to pick me up.

and also.

i go to judo training on fridays.

my bestriend goes there also.

but her new boyriend had a tournament. so she didn't go with me in my training, but she came afterwards in the training with her boyfriend.

to clear things up:

we all go to judo training. every summer and every winter there is a trip, in summer camping and in winter in hostels.

this year i had to go a day before , so i missed eerything that went on.

apperently, they just so cuddled all the time and then when she was very tired, he kissed her.

and all the while, im being extremely on edge the whole time. i can't sit still. and i'm being really y.