I'm sad

Hey guys :)) Well I'm your great author, KasumiYanagawa. Well...I think everyone thinks that I'm this jolly and crazy author but....I'm not the same anymore....Ever since....Anger, Hatred and Sadness filled my heart... I'm already....numb....I was treating my best friends not the same anymore, I was cold to anyone who knows me.. Yet I'm trying to be the same Gail again. But it's hard. Especially if I feel Sad. I...I'm sorry If I spent your time reading my blog but, I just want to burst out my feelings....well...earlier...I just did a simple mistake yet it looks like I'm always getting blamed! It looks like I killed a person?! Why? What did I do? There were numerous times where I was thinking that the only way I can get out of this mean world...That way I can be free and happy again. I was actually thinking of suicide, my family never knew. Only one friend of mine knows about it, And...she always stops me from killing myself by calming me down and kidding around. Making me happy... I'm really happy she's my best friend... But...I....I want to escape from this never ending sadness in my heart...My own parents and my own brother never noticed my tears. Even my cold treatment to others...I....I need your help guys...

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mamztet #1
hey what's wrong? you okay now? why you didn't tell me about it? i just read your problem. duhh don't do stupid thing Kristen!!! please dont do this i hate when people ldoing this . its like you're give up with your life. i know you strong kristen. now you make me sad ... i beg you be strong girl..
love ya girl ;))
Phibster12 #2
You know, I was like you before...
I was always blamed for their mistakes and some insult me for my fats... Oh well, that is baby fats..

Anyways, I always ignore them because I always think that they are just joking around, so yeah...
But I want to commit suicide last time because my dad always scold me or make chores, and my brother always insults me..

I want to die that moment but then everything changed when I went 6th grade...I have a true friend there and she always help me so yeah... my mind changed...

You know, that particular person that knows your secret is fated to meet you...I think God sent her to change your mind because it's stil not your time...You still have goals here in earth right? Update fanfics, see SNSD orSomething something...

You see, every friends you have her in AFF is not what you expected but they are the true friends you expect...
Anyways, I just want to say don't do it and still believe in positive things and continue to move forward..

So yeah... HWAITING!!!!!!!!! ^^
hopeless09 #3
Just stay strong.. never ever give up.. always trust your self..everything will be alright.. its always a sad moment.. you just have to wait.. be happy enjoy your life...tke care.
taenysoosica99 #4
Unnie don't be like that sometimes i'm thinking the same as you cause sometimes I think I'm useless to everybody and no one appriciates me but suddenly I remember the happy memories with my friends and family sometimes they doesn't know i have a problem I felt that they doesn't even care I'm cold to them when I have a problem or did something that I hated. Unnie u can talk to me if you want or share something to me maybe I can help. ^_^
PomPoms #5
Heeeey. That would be the biggest mistake if ever. And.. don't kill yourself with sadness. It's better to die with happiness right? C'mon buddy. Let's just drink.:-) kidd.
blueow #6
Please don't kill yourself. There's a lot of things that you haven't seen. Maybe the people that surrounds you might not really care but there's a lot of people that really cares about you. It's also a good thing that you even let out your feelings through this blog.

I might not be even close to you but I do care for you. Cheer up! ^___^ there's a lot of things ahead of you so don't give up. You may be at your lowest now but don't forget that someday, you'll be at your highest. Don't lose hope. Life has a lot to offer. We're always here whenever you need someone to talk to. ^____^
cactus_dream #7
Chingu-ya, what happen with u?

Chingu-ya, no matter how hard ur problem is, there will b something that can solve it. . .

I have a friend, she said that we shouldn't waste our life by think or even doing something like suicide. .our life is a gift from God that we have to keep it and cherish it as long as we can. .life is beautiful, isn't it?

Chingu-ya, even though I don't know about what ur problem is but i'm sure u can face it, I know u can and I know u r strong. . .and u alwayss strong. .

Chingu-ya, fighting!!
^^
SirenityxMustache #8
Don't ever think of Suicide again please. It won't help, thus it will only add burdens not only to you after death but to the others too. Just think about your bestfriend if you do that. She would be so sad , you need to consider her feelings too.I'm not an expert in life i'm just voicing out my opinion to you. And i won't say that you have to consider everything i said. Goodluck , keep on going and never give up , for those who still believe's and love's you. ^^
mjeongnam #9
hey,actually your case are really the same with me but the different is you have a friend to comfort you while me,I'm all alone and my family also doesn't notice my tears,I always cry in my room in the darkness.I let out my feelings in my diary,after I let it out,it's felt a little better but still the feel to be ignore and blame are still linger in my heart

Chingu-ah HWAITING !


P.S,it's me yuls1c and I change my name and your poster,I do it when I'm free bcuz there's so many works that my teacher gave
Totoro_lover #10
Unnie don't! Suicide is never the answer! Why don't you talk about your problems instead of keeping it inside? It might help you.
FujinoLover #11
Oh, same here but for an entirely different matter. What keeps me alive is writing. So write, create a better world than the one we live on and you'll get bits of happiness from it.

All Hail TaeNy~
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