the silence is deafening, and not even a breath is hushed out. everything is white, white -- blinding white, the type of white that would hurt and harm your eyes instantly. but that's not the case for bang yongguk, because he is already dead. no dead can die again. it is an inevitable fact, that once you are dead, you can't be put into eternal sleep once more.

"you killed him."

yongguk hardens his knuckles, his white skin turning even more paler than before. his lips are pursed shut, and his eyes are darkening with loathe and anger. after a few moments, he begins to shake, because of the realization -- that he killed someone.

"you killed your own best friend, bang yongguk."

his eyes snaps open, and he is shaking even harder than before. "it's for her," he growls, gritting his teeth in anger. "she doesn't deserve that to love him. maybe he's my best friend, but i would do anything to protect her. he abused her. what can i do? i have no evidence. i only saw it with my eyes. she blindly loved him. he took pleasure in abusing women. what can i do? report it?"

"murder is a sin, bang yongguk."

yongguk closes his eyes, the inevitable truth stuck in his throat. he wants to shriek, to cry out loud that this isn't fair -- but what can he do? nothing. he is only able to answer the statements that he was given, not speak freely as he can. he wants to escape this place -- damn, he needs to live again -- but he's dead. dead because of the one he loves. 

"you will go to hell, bang yongguk."

"i-" he chokes, tears b on the corner of his eyes, "i did it for her! why can't you just see? she's blinded by love! a love that's nonexistent! that's why she accused me of murdering him, not telling that i helped her to get out from that torture! that abuse! can't you just see?!"

the silence is once again deafening.

no one answers him anymore.

entry for aff open college. c: