I'm not alone, right?

So here's what I've been thinking a lot about lately...

As most of you know, I am not at all asian, but I love Arashi and JPop. Before, when I would talk to people or tell people that I'm into that, they didn't really seem to care or maybe I just didn't care if they cared. Now that I'm a little older, it's kinda starting to get to me. If I tell people about Arashi or about something that has to do with Japan, I'm always afraid that people will think of me as a freak. That's why I rarely talk to people about them (and I know, that's a VERY bad thing).

 

Here's two examples:

one-- my best friend in the town I live in doesn't exactly make fun of me, but she's been known to make fun of Arashi. She doesn't find them attractive, she says they look like girls, and the only thing that she really knows about them is that they're Japanese, look older than 17 (except Nino, but when I told her their ages she flipped out), and that a pair of them might be gay (you all know who it is she's talking about, but I didn NOT call them gay! I said it would surprise me if they came out. I could care less about them being gay or not anyway, but I'm just saying...) It really when she calls them girls, but whenever I argue with her she doesn't really seem to care.

two-- OMG THE NEW VIDEO IS OUT!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooooooo excited when 'Meikyuu Love Song' came out and the pv I LOVE IT!!!!!! I decided to post it on facebook so that I wouldn't loose it, and thirty minutes after it was on there, the first comment that came up was 'they all look the same, is that bad??'

Well, yes it is, because they DO NOT look the same, but how am I going to respond to that?? THATS WHY I don't talk to people about Arashi. All the people that I can talk to about Arashi are online on this site.

 

Is it bad that I'm like this? Or is it normal that I don't want to tell people because I don't want them to make fun of me? I've had that happen before, and it hurt... a lot...

If I'm alone, then tell me so. If I'm crazy, SAY SOMETHING. I won't hate you for saying the truth, I just want a second opinion from someone...

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aibasgirl2013 #1
sandrahayes: why were people insulting everything asian? here in the us, people make fun of them sometimes but it's not over the top. that doesn't really make sense why people in europe would do that, but i'm also not european.
and i totally get what you mean when the internet is your safe haven. sometimes i feel like thats the only place where i can talk about arashi openly. it's nice to know that people are in the same boat you are as far as being teased about something you like go.
if you ever need anyone to talk to, i'm here ^^
aibasgirl2013 #2
lounari: i would think that being asian, you really wouldn't have the same kinda problems that others go through, but i could be completely WRONG in that. i think that a big reason people look at me weirdly or make fun of me sometimes is because i'm a white girl listening to japanese music. it's strange! and i wont' post anything on facebook either (or rarely anyway) because then i get reactions like the one i got about 'meikyuu love song'. i won't even talk to my friend about arashi anymore because i don't want her to make fun of them.
and i can honestly say that ever since i began listening to arashi, it has made my life happier and more enjoyable. when i found them, i was kinda going through an identity crisis where i had no idea what it was that i wanted to do with my life. when i started listening to them, they made my worries less and i realized finally what it is that i want to do. utada hikaru and puffy amiyumi (the first jpop people i ever listened to) didn't really do that for me.
Lounari #3
I am Asian, so I can't say I know how it feels to be like you. But the same thing happened to me in 7th grade. One of my closer friends called Arashi gay because of their happy music. But at the time she liked cross-dressing visual-kei guys. -_-

It really pisses me off when people diss on others and not even get the chance to know them, it just shows how insensitive they are. I stopped posting Asian things on Facebook because 1) I live in the ghetto, and it's not appreciated, 2) No one knows what Asian music is and doesn't care much for it.

Don't stop what you love. That's my point. I stopped and I miss it dearly.
SandraHayes #4
I know I'm saying this all the time but: I have the same problem like you. I'm not Asian as well and what's more - I'm from Europe. Do you know how horrible people live here? Just a few years ago they used to insult everything that came from Asia. Not to tell about music. So fans of J-pop are in special community but they're not talking to each other in real life. Thanks God for the internet in time like this. So I also have to be silent if I don't want myself to be a center of stupid jokes. You're not alone :) And I'm glad that I'm not alone too. :)
aibasgirl2013 #5
LOL i've actually done that before! in the middle of class, i'll start singing and i'll do the arm movement for 'a-ra-shi a-ra-shi for dream~' people look at me funny but then i'm just like 'what? you know i'm not normal so this really shouldn't shock you...'
i know i need to quit worrying about what other people say, but for some reason its hard for me to ignore it sometimes....
IM WORKING ON IT THOUGH
Hiwatarii #6
YOU'RE NOT ALONE AI-CHAN!
I dont talk about Arashi to much either but you should be able to talk about them proudly and not caring about what other say about them, just answer them with a simple "have you seen yourself in the mirror lately?"
do it like me - sing and dance "A.RA.SHI" in the middle of the street- you'll feel so good after xD or maybe just embarassed.. but hey ..
I'm not very normal ^^' but don't worry, you
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