I hate life
I'm so upset right now this assignment my English teacher gave us is about the 5 stages of grief and I had to think about the things I want to forget I'm starting to blame myself again and I hate it so ing much it hurts so ing much to think that my dad won't come back and this assignment reminded me that he won't come home anymore and he won't hug me anymore I won't be able to smell his scent anymore or feel his beard and mustache on my face or hear his laugh or his jokes or any of that and if ing hurts so much it's really hard to go through it alone because my sister doesn't talk about it and I keep it in all the time and pretend I'm not bothered by it or that I'm fine and happy when I'm not I just ing not happy like I use to be this death has changed me so much and I hate this assignment for making me remember how it feels to think these things and I just don't want to have to deal with any of this anymore I know it's been four years but I'm still not over it or at least a little accepting at all I'm sorry for my rant but I have to let is out somehow or I'll explode
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