Guys... I feel like I am about to fall into depression..... I know you might say that "Don't Fall into it" but i just can't avoid it now....

I feel like I am a dissapointment to my family most of the time because I can't do what they expect me to do. Now I know you are going to say that I have strict parents but in reality I don't. I probably have the best parents I can ever had! It's just that I feel hopeless and useless at times to them. They do so much for me and i can't even give them what they want from in school.... I try my best but sometimes i feel lost and too afraid to even ask for help. I can't explain this to them or my sister who I share a lo of things to. She is the one who brought me to loving Kpop. But sometimes my sister makes me feel so underrated and a weakling.... My parents are so proud of her because she is successful at school while I barely make it when I try my hardest.... Don't hate my sister just because of this! It is my own fault for what I am.

I don't have many friends to talk to or have the same interest as me except for one who I met this year. She has so many things incomman as me and we get along so well. But she has problems too. Her 'friends' are horrible people.... And I am here helpings her getting out of depression and out of that 'friend circle' when I am slipping into depression..... I know some people will say that "Oh she doesn't look depressed, she is probably tired" but I'm not just tired. I am tired because of too much stress. Too much stress makes me lose sleep.

Sometimes I am afraid of my parents emotionally. Like if I do something bad, the looks on their face makes me feel bad. The look of dissapointment....

Well I just kind of hope that I don't slepnto depression... Thanks for hereing me rant!