From Me To You, With All My Love and Grease

My dearest Kim Sunggyu,

Hi, honey.

I know I always ruin my surprises, that you already have an idea of what this is.

To tell you honestly, my vow wasn't all I wanted to tell you.

I'll be starting school soon, and I'll be missing you a lot.

So while I have the time in my hands, I made all this. I hope you'll like it.

I'm not expecting you to cry.

I just want you to feel that I really appreciate everything we've had. :)

Well. Here goes.

Remember this..? OuO

Every relationship starts with a hello. As for me, I happened to give you a poke as a hello. Endearing, right? OuO Did you expect this? Well, neither did I. But hey, this is our start.

My first attempt to make WooGyu happen. Lmfao. Just because I'm usually out with Key, it doesn't mean that I won't be spending time with my precious hyung. How could I NOT make time for you, tbh. Time will tell to my love, remember? :3

And here we have my first ever greasy attempt. OuO I told you I would. Look where we are right now. We started out as rivals of sorts. Who would believe we'd actually end up together? :)

HAHAHAHA. XD Oh, baby. I don't even know what to say about this. XD I'll just leave you to remember how red your face was when you saw me with your (oh so adorable) boxers that you happened to forget on the couch where I'm seated.

Ah, Namsan Tower. Never gonna forget that place. Unlike you. /laughs/ Kidding, kidding. Actually, what I'm implying here was more of platonic. Yes, still platonic, no matter how cheesy it sounded. Like, if ever you didn't like me, at least I'd know you'll still be my friend no matter what. I needed an assurance here. Some kind of proof that even if I can't have you, you'll still be in my life. :)

Are you crying now?

Of course not. Just smiling like an idiot. ouo

Moving on~

Ah. Deciding on a dessert and you happened to say the right thing. OuO I wanted to scream "YES GYU BBY I WANT YOU. YOU'RE THE DESSERT I NEED TO SATISFY ME." But I wanted to be discreet. At least, for the time being. And oh, this happens to be your first grease attempt. Will never forget this. OuO

I swear, I did NOT expect this. Not from the dry guy I know. Oh dear heavens. You have no idea how much this made me squeal my greasy little heart out. And what do you mean what am I doing to you. I ain't doing anything. Heheh, eung~

Ah, this. Another grease attempt, tbvh. OuO As soon as I saw your o///o face, I sort of had a mini heart flip. I wanted to take you there. On the very top, where thousands of couples have been to seal their hearts with so-called locks of love. I didn't really intend for us to "lock" our love. I just wanted to spend time with you, in a cheesier manner. Little did I know, I'll eventually have you after all. I guess we don't really need to lock our love after all. We're already stuck to each other.

Ah, the basketball game. Truth be told, I purposely gave up that chance to make you do something for me. I wanted to do something for you this time. I wanted to grant your wish. I wanted to be your genie. I wanted to see your smile, knowing I was the one who made you happy.

And here we have, your genius wish. What. The . XD At first I thought, yeah, what the , Kim Sunggyu? My crossdress attempts are always failures >< But, here you are, asking me out as your "date" to White Day instead. WTF. But then again, it's my chance to be with you. I thought, if spending time with you means I have to pretend to be a girl, I'll do it.

Do you heal me? Do you heal my heart? It's going dugeun dugeun~ :3 This is the part of our love story where I'm asking myself, "Does he really like me? Do I have a chance? Should I confess?". Believe it or not, the great greaseball Nam Woohyun felt that way. Why did you have to be so sweet and adorable? :P

My confession. :3 eung~ Aish. It's not even as romantic as how I pictured it. I was thinking I'd confess while kneeling down in front of you, with a box of chocolates in my hand and a single rose in my mouth; not nomming on the kitchen counter with you just watching me. XD But, well, I tried. Srsly. "I'm gay" was the only thing I could think of before I could say the exact thing; that I like you. That my greasy heart is beating for you and only you.

I don't think I need to explain this, tbvh. The screencap practically shouts "WOOGYU! WOOGYU! WOOGYU!" :3

Let me just say.. LIKE-LIKE OMG CAN YOU STAHP BEING ADORABLE FAWCK I HATE YOU OMG KIM SUNGGYU WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME MY GOOOOOOD-- okay, I'm good. :3 But seriously.. oh my god. Can you not? You can't just take my hand and tell me you like-like me and not expect me to spazz like the typical Nam Woohyun that I am. You have nooooo idea how much you made me want to flip to another planet and somersault back to you and hug you oh-so-tight like I'd hug my favorite teddy bear. You made my stomach tumble and do freaking backflips. Just this simple gesture was enough to make me flush and lose my mind. I swear, I've never felt like this with anyone else. I know I always seem like the playboy type; calm, smooth with my words and knows the right thing to say every time. I don't know what was in those noodles that you fed to me, but I'm not complaining. This is the best feeling I've ever had.

March 19, 2013.

I'll never forget that date.

Well, that was it. The start of a wonderful relationship. :)

To say it was wonderful is an understatement. It was every positive adjective in the dictionary, every sugary word you can think of even if it doesn't exist.

And, look. Pepero sticks. OuO

Heheh. ouo

Our first kiss couldn't be any more romantic. Not to mention, hearing you call me baby~ :3 We were like two teenagers in love, kissing in public and with no care whoever sees it. It was perfect.

Ah, the first time 'WooGyu babies' was mentioned. Honestly, I tried to take this lightly. I didn't think you were serious about having kids with me because, you know, I'm supposed to be incapable. I tried to lighten up. But then.. as time goes by, I began seeing how serious you were. That you really wanted kids. That you weren't just messing with me when you said you wanted to elope, start a family with me and have little woogyu babies running around. Okay, maybe we didn't elope, but hey, we know better. XD

Okay, so I had my doubts. I'm not the most optimistic person, okay? But.. okay, I was wrong. XD Idk how on earth you did but I'm not going to question it anymore. On with the baby-making~ OuO /slapped for tmi/

You know, this one means a lot to me. You remember when I texted you the other night, about how lately, couples are breaking up and removing themselves off the couple list? I was so scared that will happen to us, even before we got engaged. I was scared you'll leave me. I was scared we'll grow apart, lose communication and eventually, fall out of love. But we didn't. We talked almost everyday. We never seemed to run out of things to say. There wasn't a dull nor awkward moment with you. Everything was just right. So I stopped questioning everything and just went with the flow. Did everything I can to keep it going. I never gave up, because I can feel that you won't either.

Biggest. Question. Ever. Like seriously. XD We had quite a number of couple nicknames. Skinship couple. Gay couple. Husbang couple. The couple who went on a honeymoan. ouo Yes, honeymoan. But we're usually referred to as WooGyu. Why, oh why, do I top in this couple name, tbvh. You and I both know this is really GyuWoo, because apparently, I can't "top" for long. Did it twice, that was it. Heheh. Tbvh with you, I actually like being bottom. The view is great from there- /hollowblocked/ Okay, what I'm trying to say is, okay, I LOVE being bottom. I like being the vulnerable one. I like it when you take control. I like it because it's all about the thrill. I just have to go with the flow and drown in pleasure, drown in your love. Not because out of ness. Doesn't really matter who tops and who doesn't. I'll gladly give myself to you either way, because I love you. That's all it takes.

My favorite screenshot of all. You said this during our first monthsary, in reply to my "Let's take it to thirty more days" or something along that line. Did you just do a finger jam and punched in random numbers? XD But then, I thought.. I don't need to count 1346562819200 days. That's not necessary. Because I'm infinitely yours. Numbers don't matter anymore. Little did I know, that on this same day, you'll get down on your knee and propose to me. And that thirty more days later, we'll say our vows and promise each other "till death do us part".

Alright, enough screenshots. Actually, I have about 50 more, but then again, I'm too tired to crop and upload all of them, so I just selected a few. However, I'm not done talking yet. We still have more memories to tackle. OuO

See this, honey? This is Namsan Tower. As I've said earlier, I wanted to take you here. See the whole city of Seoul from the top view, perhaps. See all those locks? Those are all the couples before us. Some of them lasted. Some of them might have not. To me, going here and locking our love would have been a great memory. But then I thought, we don't need to do that. We don't need something as concretely symbolic as a padlock to "lock our love" for us. We already did that ourselves. Just you staying by me all the time and not giving up on each other.. our hearts are already sealed. Sure, I was bit sad when you "forgot" about it, but I did some thinking, and.. I can safely say we've already done it. :)

Eung~ I'm sure you remember this 'cause you have the original now. ^^ I'm sorry I took so long to pop in. I didn't know you were actually staring at your mentions and waiting for me. I was coloring this one in. If only I knew how to use Photoshop, it would have come out nicer :( But thank you for appreciating my effort nonetheless. Hey, it's your birthday. How can you think I'll forget when I've been doing a countdown days before? :P Tbh, I didn't know what to give you at first. Heck, I didn't really have a concrete idea. I was at lose of what to give you. Then I suddenly spotted my sketchpad and a bunch of colored pencils. It's been a while since I drew artistically since people have been telling me I should focus on the practical side now. But heck, who cares. I love drawing. Why not draw again, right? It wasn't that hard thinking of this; isn't it adorbs? ; u ; Three hours' worth. Aren't you just proud of me? :P

I don't mean to ruin the mood, but I came across this too. That day we made each other jealous. At first it was a joke, everything was just for the purpose of teasing the other. But then you showed me that picture, and.. I don't know, it really irked me. I wasn't supposed to be this affected. It was supposed to be a joke, nothing more. But I had to be such a sensitive sap and ruin the mood. I'm still sorry about that. I didn't mean to, but seeing you being hugged by someone else.. I couldn't take it. Even if it's another member. I'm not trying to be possessive. I don't want you to think I only want you with me and no one else. I don't want you to feel that I want to control what you do. Of course you're free to do what you want, as long as you're happy. It's just that.. you know, I was jealous. Really jealous. I'm so sorry. But it went well in the end. We hugged and made up. Jealousy doesn't really last because you and I both know we only love each other and no one else. :') I'm sorry I was immature and played along. I didn't mean to use Sungyeol. You know I only love you. :">

Ah, remember that time when we went to the amusement park as a late monthsary date? ^^ That brought out the kid in me more. Oh, not to mention, that bus ride we had before we got there. (I sat on your lap because there was only one seat left.) We bought each other those silly animal hats and started going around the park like little kids. Ooh, but then there's this giant rollercoaster that attracted me. ouo Honestly, I'm really sorry I made you ride it; in front, of all places. I was flailing my arms around excitedly while you held on to me like a scared little hamster. (I found it so cute, tbvh) If I could just stop time, stop the coaster and just hold you there for a while. To calm you down, let you know I'm here and I'm sorry I made you do this.

Then we got on this ferris wheel. In contrast to our previous ride, I liked this one more. It's relaxing, quiet and the view outside never looked so beautiful. Of course, the person right beside me at that time is even more beautiful. ouo Heheh. This ride calmed us both down. It made me want to stop time again; this time, while we are at the very top, so I can take both the scenery outside and the sight of you. I'll feel like I'm on top of the world, this time, with the person I love.

See all that food? Heheh. They sure make me hungry. OuO They're all some of my favorites. You, out of all people, should know about my undying love for food. Sure, I'm Infinite's diet diva. But hey, food. OuO So what am I trying to point out this time? I love food. BUt I love you more. OuO My love for you is like pizza; cheesy. OuO Mwehehe. Okay, so comparing love to food isn't really the best thing. But I've said this to you before, I'll say it again. I love you, more than I'll ever love food. But I still love food. OuO

Oh and, honey.. I want strawberries. OuO

See these seven wonderful creatures? They're our WooGyu bbys, no less. OuO I arranged them according to likeability order of adoption. And yes, I'll never forget our Baekhyun. To think we used to just dream of our little Infinite. Now, they're.. /sobs/ complete. *^* I'm going to smother all of them with love and grease <3 (Yes, even Seungri. Who is now our official child). I propose another Infinite. OuO /slapped/ Heheh. But seriously speaking.. I learned a lot from them. You know how parents nowadays are distant from their children because of work and ? I tried not to be like that. I tried to be open to them, be there for them when they need me. Of course, I'll give credit for trying too eue No, no. Just kidding. You're a great appa, I'll give you that. You actually barely nag; only when necessary. You try your best to be close to them, be there for them when they need you. And I couldn't thank you enough for that. :) This is honestly a wonderful family, ignoring the fact that our children each have their own weird antics. /laughs/ I'll be adding Sunghyun's picture here soon.

This was on my bucket list; to have THE perfect wedding. I actually have no idea how a perfect wedding looks like; I just know how it'll feel like. And thank you for striking this off my bucket list. I didn't have any expectations for a wedding. All I wanted is to feel blissful that I'll get to be with the one I love, infinitely. And you gave me more than just a wedding. You gave me a perfect one. One I'll never trade for any other. One I'll always cherish. One I'll always look back to and still can't believe it was real. The day I walked down the aisle and vowed "till death do us part" with you, is my happiest. I couldn't tell you exactly how I felt. I was in mixed emotions; all good ones, tbvh. It all seems surreal; being married to you. I honestly couldn't be happier.

I realized, it's not just the wedding that's perfect.

It's you. You're perfect.

I remembered our sentimental texts the other night. I figured, what will happen to us when school starts and we'll both be busy? We're so used to talking to each other almost everyday. What if we grow apart? What if one of us suddenly wanted to detach? I couldn't take that. It'll break my heart. I'll cry and sob till my eyes hurt and I feel numb. But then you texted me something that gave me hope.

"Let's not break up, ok? :c"

Of course we won't. Not now, not during our hiatus, not ever. Infinitely yours, remember? We're sticking to each other forever. Yeongwonhi, right? We promised, only death will part us. You know I never give up on anything, not if it concerns you. Us. Because you're my other half.

Without you, I'm a spoon missing from its chopsticks,

a thread cut from a needle,

a string detached from a kite.

I live and breathe Kim Sunggyu.

We're like two peas in a pod; except that's only for bestfriends. We're more than that.

When we first started going out, I used to think you're my caffeine. (I can't say you're my drug because drugs are and ruin your life. Okay, maybe you did ruin mine. In a good way. ouo) I compared you to coffee, heheh, no judging. Okay, caffeine. You're my caffeine because every time I have you with me, I'm suddenly perky, in the right mood. Unlike you, caffeine keeps me up. And you do that to me. You keep me up and going. You're my strength. You always put me in a good mood when I'm down and depressed like a ing whale that didn't eat for days.

As time went by, you became more than caffeine to me. You were my world, my soul, the love of my life. When we got engaged, you're suddenly my universe. You owned me (again, in a good way). It's like, all my love for you suddenly increased. All respect for you suddenly went higher than Mt. Everest. You made me want to die and float off to heaven when you got down on one knee and showed me that ring.

Now that we're married, you're now my forever. My everything. My infinity. Yeongwonhi.

"Infinitely Yours" isn't just another cheesy line to express affection. It suddenly gained meaning when we married. I used to think infinity is just a stupid concept people came up with just to have something that doesn't end. I used to think everything has an end, everything dies, nothing lasts. Thank you for proving me wrong. Thank you for proving to me that love is infinite, that it's possible to love someone unconditionally.

You've probably been wondering why I've done this.

Why I've put so much effort.

Why I'm reminiscing on everything we've had.

Why I'm talking so much again.

It's because I'll miss you.

I'll miss your smile.

I'll miss your hugs.

I'll miss your kisses.

I'll miss everything we did on a daily basis.

No, I'm not leaving. Gawd.

I've been thinking lately, and school's coming up again. I need to raise the bar and put extra effort on my freshman year so I can continue studying for five years. If I made it this coming year, I'll be admitted to sophomore year and I don't have to worry about cut-off grades.

Why am I suddenly talking OOC? Because you're the person I've had most OOC with. We even met in person. ^^ (Still bitter about that selca we never took. ene)

So, if I did well this year, there's a good chance for me to live my dream to be an architect.

Hopefully I can ask for permission from the admins if I can take a year-long semi hiatus.

Like I promised you before, I'll drop by every week to leave you tweets and dms. Might even ask you for opinions about my plates. And like I said, you'll be my motivation for school. XD

I'll miss you. Take care of our kids while I'm off, okay? I'll do the same when you're busy as well. ^^

Aww~ Remember when we missed each other too much, we turned into ducks? ; u ; Gawd, your pouty face is just so adorable omg I can't-- OuO I have a feeling I'll be making that face often every time I miss you. Every time I think of you and we're not talking. Every time I see your 'good morning' greeting and I can't text back because I have no load. :( I want you to know that there never was a day I let pass by without ever thinking of you. You'll always be on my mind. I'll always worry about you. I'll always want to talk to you, have some kind of connection. Because you know, my morning isn't great without your 'good morning', and I won't be able to sleep peacefully without reading your lovely 'good night, let's meet in our dreams."

I may not be French, but this says it all. It's beautiful, and fits everything I wanted to say. I'll feel like you're missing from me. I love you that much. So whether you like it or not, I'll still be bothering you with texts from time to time. :3