I'm afraid of this story I'm writing. Like, I have no idea where these emotions are coming from. I know the ending but I'm not sure I can handle it. Is it really possible to feel this way for someone who essentially isn't real? Should I be able to connect this way to a character who I hope I never become? Most importantly, how did I get so emotionally connected to something that started out as a whimsical idea, a single scene that practically wrote itself, and has now become a major production. I feel like I'm exposing some secret part of myself that I didn't know existed. I don't want to be this girl but I find it way too easy to slip into her mind.