As all you people hopefully know, I am GIRL (If the name Kelly just didn't make you thing of a girl...hahaha~!) And OF COURSE as people get older, we all have that time where we have a crush...

And when I talk about "crush"...I don't mean our beloved KPOP idols...I'm talking about the ones who we may or may not interact with. Whether it's that cute guy in your biology class, to the good looking next door neighbor etc since the list goes ON AND ON.

Yes Ryan Gosling I do find you attractive...stop making me feel like a lonely old cat lady...

Anyway! Back to my point! So I had a crush on this guy since I was in 8th grade (I'm in 9th a.k.a. freshmen but in August I'll be a sophmore...sigh. Damn I'm getting old.) and it started through maybe about March of 2012? Yeah..I'm pretty sure because I remember I went on a Washington D.C. trip over Spring Break and this creepy weirdo liked me but...that's another story.

So here's how I'll describe my crush.. He's ASIAN (How about dem apples~ Haha! He's a mixture of Chinese, Cambodian, and Vietnamese), he's super cute (Like when you look at him..you just can not say he isn't cute..coz he is. Apparently about almost every asian girl likes him, liked him, or finds him cute...sigh.), nice, funny, caring, sweet and more. Plus I also have his number too. /winks/ /slaps self in the face/

But I feel like a noob because I'm like one of those asian girls who's crushing on him. But yet I keep reminding everyone...I'M HALF ASIAN AND HALF WHITE. But it's coz I look more asian that's why. I have to keep showing people MY DAD (who is like pale as ) to remind them and their reactions are always like

Speaking of my dad! I told him about my crush because well honestly...at least we can joke around (unlike my mother who barely has a sense of humor and doesn't realize that she's been with blessed with a hilarious child named ME.). So I told my dad about my crush (whose name is...ermm..fine.. I'll tell you his name...his name is...Alec..) and how he has spikey hair...I hope your thinking of a specific idol with black spikey hair right now... And now my dad refers to him as "Spikey Boy".

Really Dad...really? Well sorry that I'm more into the asians than YOUR PALE RACE..Pft....

So remember when I told you guys how the competition for Alec is? From my view, it's pretty tough I guess. And because of that, I just feel like I have no chance with the guy you know? But at least I talk to the guy...but errr..yeah. (Besides..my school is full of the popular boys who I have absolutely NO chance with...and then there's a couple of guys who are..well..like me..I'M TOO NICE TO PEOPLE. But I feel bad, I say no though, coz I just want to date a guy who I'm like myself with..catch my drift?) I don't believe in myself (one of my many flaws) and always think negative. But wanna know what REALLYYYYY ing pisses me off? Everybody...and everybody means A LOT OF DAMN PEOPLE...says:

"Oh my god Kelly! You guys would seriously be of the cutest couples ever!" "Oh! I can see you guys together?" "You guys would have such cute kids!" "You guys would look so great together!" And etc etc etc.

I mean don't me wrong...Hearing these comments from people get me all tingy and fangirling on the inside but UGH. #1 Cute kids? Yesh..maybe..but that's just a bit weird. #I'm not pretty. I feel like ugly. It's because of my self esteem and self confidence issues. (A lot of people tell me I'm really pretty because I'm a mixture of white/filipino and I'm "naturally pretty"..I don't wear make up..AT ALL..Apparently it looks like I wear eyeliner and mascura..like the heckkkk...) and #3 OKAY GUYS I GET IT. WE WOULD LOOK CUTE BUT HE'S NOT INTO THE WHOLE LIKING SOMETHING. (My friend actually thought he was gay. /dies/ /faints/ /slaps/)

And you wanna know what can go on top of ALL OF THIS.....?

......HE KIND OF LOOKS LIKE TAEYANG FROM BIGBANG...

/DEAD/ Well in one picture he does...and his hair sort of too..

If wanna see what he looks like...

(I am COMPLETELY open about my personal life haha..but ermm..don't make fun of me because he's my crush and stuff...okay..?)

click the link...

AND TO PROVE TO YOU ALL...SHIELD YA EYES... :P

Soo..there y'all go... that beez me..

So yerp..that concludes this blog post about my high school crush. I know I'm a loser. I mean G-Dragon and Jay Park are ALL-TIME CRUSHES but I sadly have to know that I must be practical. /:   I hope you enjoyed the gifs~! My favorite was the Ryan Higa one...God I love that guy so much... (:

If you're comparing...me & my crush would look bad together right? :P