Today is a good day despite my current "boyfriend" refusing to go to a resort with me coz he didn't have money. Yea. I'm still pissed about that but the heavens have blessed me after that disappointment.

My first ever boyfriend suddenly sent me a message on facebook.

You don't know how much I smiled like an idiot, rolled around my bed and squealed. This guy has become taller, macho-er, and more attractive ever since we broke up which was like 6 years ago. I reacted like this because we never had a conversation longer than one sentence ever since after that post break-up where we say like "I miss you but we've broken up" part and lost contact for years.

SO anyway, after I spazzed. I calmed myself down. Of course I needed to be cool. I can't risk him thinking that I still have this huge crush on him.

English of himala: Miracle. Okay. So I totally failed. I replied after a minute. I probably should have replied like 5 minutes after right?? He probably thinks I'm still clinging on him!

Moving on... Our chatting continued.

See that, he replied a minute after. He wants me so bad. He probably wants to marry me. LMAO. So he said that I look prettier now and I said, still keeping my cool, like "you're kidding" in english. Then he said "haha you have that humble thing going on ha". 

My level of spazzing upped a notch. omg. This guy. No matter how many years passed, he's still like my ultimate crush of all my past relationships. HE HAS ABS GUYS! Like the natural abs that guys get when they lift stuff and play basketball. Not the gym abs.

We still chatted until night and omg I think I love him again. HAHAHA. No. of course not. I just have a crush on him. Like I hug my pillow thinking its him kind of crush. That's not a bad thing right? hahahaha.