Hi guys… ^^

Don't really know if people will read this or not, but here I go anyways...

So my grandmother is dying because she’s sick and that means I’m kind of… out of myself.

Uhm.. wauw this is actually really hard!

I just wanted to apologize for the future lack of updates. My inspiration is kind of low because I’m just checking my phone every 5 minutes to see if the awful call is going to come soon.

I just went down to say goodbye today and it was like she was already gone.

I wanted to cry but didn’t… My sister could hardly bear it and I felt like I had to be strong for her. Show her that it’s was okay. So now I’m just… urgh…. I really don’t know what to do with myself.

I lost my grandfather 8 years ago and I had to say goodbye while he was in a coma and let me just tell you… It’s a horrible feeling. I almost didn’t enter the hospital because I was too scared to see him but I went anyway. It was kind of the same today, only that she wasn’t in a coma. She was just not there, If you know what I mean.

My grandfather died really quick and I didn’t have a lot of time to prepare for it but this time I knew for a while that she was sick. For some reason it feels worse because I use so much time thinking about it.

Sorry to blur out my heart like this… I just felt like I needed to get it out and to tell all of you lovely people.

I don’t want any sympathy or stuff like that. I just thought I would give a reason so you guys would know why I might not be as active the next couple of days.

But I will try my best to at least update one story a week. Just so you have something to be excited about ^^

I'll be a 100% back soon, I hope.

Thank you for reading! ♥