He is my cusin.... and we've been in love for like 6 years !! we always lost in each other eyes !! people noticed that and my girl cousins always shiped us together and said that we will marry and stuff and always teased me about it ..  but we were never a couple untill 4 monthes ago!! Just 4MONTHES TOGETHER!! He said he will marry me as soon as we build our life !! we always was the perfect fit !! we just clicked !! he was my soul mate !! we dreamed together !! and stood together threw thin and thick !! we alawys was there for each other and our story was just perfect and now i dont love him anymore !!  how is that even possible !!! he is 23 year old boy ! he is so nice and though he is the youngest at his house he always is the one everyone turn's too for hel or anything period!!  he is a good boxer and a cool boy !! he is nice and a gentelman and that what made me fall for him !! he was deffirent and he said the same about me  he is always the romantic one and sweet talker !! i was never that ! b4 we became an item we always had dificulties and allot of missunderstandings because of we never told our feelings and some of my family members were jeallous and allways made whole allot of fuss but he and i loved each other from all our hearts and became one !!!! but then this thing happned to me and now !! i dont love him anymore !! not only him but i dont give a shi about anyone anymore !! i've changed !! he have no idea whats going on !! and i hate to break his heart !! we were so happy but then life spit at my face and made me numb !! immotionly and everything  i told him i need time by myself .. so many things are hapening in my life at this time !! and i need to be alone !! i dont want him with me !! its not his fault  !! he dont even know whats going on .. i dont know what to do .. i dunno what to say !! hey im sorry but i dont love you anymore >< !! i cant i just cant !! i dont want him to hate me ! but i want him away from me !! i dont get it !! how could my heart just erase that amount of love from my heart like a snap of a finger , i dont want a boyfriend anymore !! i dont remember the feeling of love !! i just stare when someone tell me i love someone !!! i say to my self DOES LOVE EVEN EXCIST ?! doo i even make sence !!  i just laughed at my self  !!