So Super Junior got me into Kpop. That was my beginning. So for the longest time, I was obsessed with them. I barely adventured outside of them (mostly I was scared to). I invested so much time into them, I watched as many shows as I could that had all or some of the members in, and I got that app on the iphone, Super Junior Shake. This was when the app first came out. I spent so much time on that app, and I bought most of the songs that were on it (until the y, Free, and Single album went up. I hadn't gotten around to it). Anyway, that shake game led to me getting other shake games. I sort of drifted away from it. I went back to it tonight for nostalgia's sake. Side note that is kind of important, Yesung, while not my bias from the group, is definitely very dear to me. And his entrace into the Army has hit me harder than any of the others so far. Anyway, I was playing it, and the first song I chose was the Korean version of Perfection (the Chinese isn't on the app). It was fine with it. Perfectly okay. Sleepy, so sloppy, but okay emotion wise. I then played Andante, because I was decent at playing it. I had planned on playing White Christmas right after and then going to sleep. But I didn't get past Andante. If you've ever heard it, it's a ballad-y song. Kind of sad sounding. On the shake games, they have two members flanking the little tap bar (it's kind of like guitar hero or tap tap adventure if you haven't played it). It's always a different combination. The final one that goes from like combo 110 ish until the end usually, well, this time it was Yesung (and someone else. Eunhyukkie I think). I stared at it, feeling this sadness start to well up. I was still hitting the notes, though. I would have been okay. But then one of Yesung's longer parts came in. I lost it. I completely broke down. I started legit sobbing. I dropped the phone onto my bed, threw off the headphones, and I kept crying and crying. Even now, I'm still slightly shaking. My eyes still burn. I didn't think it (Yesung leaving for the Army) had hit me that hard, but apparently it did. 

Oh, and I failed the level. Stared at the failure screen for a few moments before exiting the app and locking the screen. 

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