Hello my beautifuls~
So today, I talked to the guy I have a crush on :]

 xDDDDD
I am super uber happy, so I letrally ran around my classroom like a weirdo and yelled. "EEEPPPPPP I TALKED TO HIM I TALK TO HIM" I can't use my exclamation mark because the key board at school is broken, so yeah. Sorry it'll will appear quite boring...

But I talked to him about things, although this time he had more face expressions than the last he still unknowingly make me really happy. But this one time, he smiled alot and everything. So I kinda want to make him smile. and since he played soccer, I told him my friend ___ and ____ are having their soccer match to see who the better player is he said "oh i never heard about it." Then when he and I were walking up, I thought it would be awkward again so I tried my best not to mkae it awkward, cause whenever we don't talk he always has the poker face on. So then he said "So where is the soccer thing at?" and I told him "Bella Terra Park." i thought this was cute and so he said "Oh I wanna go." hahah its sooo cute. But I almost said, oh i can't go because it's mother day's. But I can't say that because his mother had passed away, and I thought that was stupid..so I said "Oh I can't go because....I'm busy this weekend and I have to study for a big test." He chuckled a bit, I think and he said "OK, bye." Since we were going in a different direction. But then I saw him talking to this girl and on reflex I got a bit sad. I'm not a jealous person, so then when he was talking to her, he seems less shy and more talkative. So I thought, why can't he be like that with me? :/ I wish he was comfortable around me :[ So then I remembered my dream about where he liked this girl in my algebra class and he smiled more and looked happy when he was talking to her. But I cried alot in that dream, my friends  ask if I was ok. I smiled and laughed and said. "I'm really happy and I feel great." But later on I cried near the lockers. SO i realized I should talk to him more so maybe just maybe we might happen. So yeah talking to the girl looking all comfortable made me a bit sad and confused. But I need to stop being selfish and think about his own happiness. My friend told me he looked at me when I walked passed him without noticing, so what? LOL he does that alot. He looks at me, but WHAT DOES THIS MEAN???




ok bye