I am ranting...again...this time about bullying

This is a rant...and me ing. So fair warning, if you don't like it don't read it.

As I sit here moping in my room and listening to Adele(blaming my adopted son, he got me hooked :P) I feel the need to do something about bullying...and the best thing I can think to do is write a blog rant...and share my story

I'm not bullied by friends. It's not the popular girls at school that make me cower...I'm bullied by my family. My mom tells me I'm fat at least five times a day. I get yelled at for eating and not exercising enough. My dad hates me because my major isn't math or science related so it isn't 'real'. My sister is appaled by the fact that I like Korean music and am learning one of the most demanded languages in the world (Chinese). My whole family makes racist jokes about my friends (both American and International) that make me want to slap them. My mom has sat me down and told me not to be gay...I'm bi.

They successfully make me feel like crap whenever I am around them. It's why, when I am home, I hide in my room with my headphones in. I can't really explain how much it hurts me to have them say these things. Unfortunately, I know I'm not alone. Parents can put a lot of pressure on their kids, so much that it isn't healthy.

I hardly ever feel like I am good enough because I was constantly told I was a failure. When people tell me they think I am good at something or I will do something worth while, I don't believe them.

I got out there. I'm away at school for most of the time now, with a few breaks where I come back and have to put up with them. But when I am here, I'm not 'home'. I don't unpack...I live out of my suitcase or wear my sister's clothes...I feel like I am in a hotel, not a place that is supposed to be my home. As a kid, there is nothing worse that being terrified in a place that is supposed to be home; a safe haven. I'm scared 95% of the time.

I'm speaking up for all those kids out there who can't. Bullying comes in all forms, from all people. I just want to make one person think before they open their mouths to make a joke or rude comment to somebody. Words can hurt, sometimes more than kicks and punches. If I can make one person stop and think before they speak, I will be happy.

I got out and I got help, but there are people who can't.

So come on guys, speak up, and help stop something so stupid.

done ranting and ing...

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KpopNewb #1 Aug 9, 2012 04:28:19

:-/ don't worry my brother is a freaking racist butthole, he can be nice...sometimes. But most of the time he makes me feel like crap. He is soooooo annoying GRRRRR, making me get in trouble all the time and I think now he is getting older he is becoming more ignorant -___-lll

SuJuAngal #2 Oct 17, 2011 12:00:32

.. sup love.. im sure ive said this before but in case you need a reminder.. im totaly cool with kicking ur family's . with or without baseball. I also would like to add that we should torture ur family. like putting them in a room full of fat asian people who dont understand english and cant do math for . I feel as tho it would be fun and maybe terrify ur family into being nice for once. Or we go all harry potter on their asses nd blow them up and let them fly around in the sky for a few days.. or weeks... or forever.. you no.. which ever you like

imsosofia #3 Oct 17, 2011 00:45:20

Half of my family does that to me - the females. I don't know y but yep. My mum likes my younger sister and my grandma likes my elder sis. My dad and grandad aren't biased thou. I really dislike my grandma. She stole from me to give to my elder sis and hit me when I ate my elder sister's food. I mean, how was I to know? It didn't have her name on it.
Actually, I think you should just heed your parents' advice abt ur weight. Being overweight is as unhealthy as being underweight is.
But the thing abt what ur majoring in... Wth! Conservativeness to the max! And why should ur sis be shocked tat u like Korean and Chinese? Wait till China gets powerful. She'll regret that she didn't start learning as early as you did. *-*
My mum is racist too! Makes me look down on her. She's narrow-minded and arrogant.
Anyway, "jia jia you ben nan nian de jing". Every family will experience something like ours. Nothing can be done to alter their minds except perhaps to wait. U gotta live with it! ;)

LadyInHeaven #4 Oct 16, 2011 23:35:54

.______. I know how you feel. This is the reason I left my previous school and returned to local school. There was this girl...or more like three girls who did similar thing to me. But mainly this one girl. I don't understand bullies. They think they can do anything. But parents...I know nothing about that. I am still suffering the after effects of seven years in that school next to that girl. I dont know if I will ever be able to recover of this. I hope so.
But I didn't only get the after effects, but a nervous sickness too. So basically I have super weak nerves and I might take things too seriously at times and such. Not to mention overreacting. Good thing I opened my eyes at last.