Hi everyone~ C:

I have been quite inactive on AFF for the last few... weeks, months... and well as usual I will apologize for that because I don't mean to be like this, but university keeps ing. orz. But. I have the bestest, awesomest news I could ever wish for so here it is. I have been liking this guy from college for a while now and I'm such a horribly shy person that I don't dare to say hi to him xD So I don't. I never say hi to him. But yesterday, I smiled at him and he smiled back. C: and today was such a weird, weird day. We have this 'conversation' class, since we study Japanese, and he is in my small group of seven people. Well this has been so for the entire semester, but because today was the last class, the so called student assistent played a game with us and he wanted to team the seven of us up in two groups, one of four of course. I didn't know which group to go to, because I am always seated in the middle so the others obviously teamed up together, but since the student assistent dude wanted both teams to have one girl - since I'm the only girl together with ... the other girl OuO - one of us had to go to the other group and I was thinking like if I don't do this, I will regret it SOOO much. So I went to go with that group in which the guy I like, was also in. Yeah. And it was kind of awkward because they are three guys that are friends and I am like, a loner girl xD But nevertheless, they accepted me sort of and I had to write this character on the whiteboard but since the guy was looking at what I was doing - god he was even cheering me on orz -, I got totally confused while I actually know how to write that thing. Well I messed up. xD And I said "I'm sorry ;_;" and I flapped my arms like a retard because I didn't know what to do. And then the guy says: "It's okay~ C:" and I was like. o_o... o______o. C: "Okay." And then the day wasn't over yet, because since this was the last class of the semester, we had to fill in one of those evaluation forms and it wasn't all that interesting, but I took my time a little bit more than usual and checked my texts within the classroom while I usually don't, because he was still in there and I didn't know whether I had to say 'good luck' and such, for the exams coming up... so I waited a bit and then put my form in the envelope and when he came by, I gave it to him so he could put the thing in and he made a weird sound and wah I didn't even know what to say so I didn't say anything but I was like oh my god why are you so cute I like you so much it's unfair. So then, I took the envelope because nobody else did and one of his friends said to me that nobody ever knows where those things have to go, not even the teacher, and then the guy I like agreed in such a cute way... ah~ and then a few unimportant things happened and I didn't see him anymore since I went home.

This was a lot of text without any formatting because I'm really tired. Last night, I worked on my politics essay and could only sleep at 2 and had to get up at 5:45 again so I'm kind of dead at the moment. But even though nothing actually happened, I'm SO happy. Because he actually looked at me a lot - to be quite honest, he always does. O_o but I'm a coward and I don't always dare to look at him because what if it's accidentally and all that. xD And then I tell myself nah. He's not looking at me. But I still think he is. Or I hope so. orz. Why do I like him so much ;_; Why am I such a coward. ;_;

But you know. O_O This guy. He's going to go to Japan with me. And 12 others but hey. Screw those 12 people. WE'RE GOING TO JAPAN TOGETHER CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. I can't. Still. And I'm going to... I..... I'm going to make sure he's mine. C:< oh well. For those of you who know me better than that. You can laugh at me now xD