Let me start off by apologizing, I'm sorry. I'm sorry to all who was effected by this. If anyone should be blamed for anything that has been happening, it's me. Before I say what I did, fist let me apologize to all who were affected. First. Sohyun. I'm sorry you that you were the first victim. You fell for him, and you now what I'm sure he fell for you too. But whatever went wrong there.. I don't know. I warned him multiple times not to go near Hyewon, who is the second person I need to apologize to. The two of you were in this together. I apologize for not realizing what he was doing sooner and stopping him from that. Next.. I'm not sure who, but I know there's more. Sorry Hyoyeon... Sorry Lime.. But most importantly, sorry Ara. I know you are no longer here to read this, but I am so very sorry. To all the friendships ruined, to any relationships ruined, to all the men who were cried to. I'm sorry to all the broken hearts that have to be mended. Areum, I'm sorry that you are somehow being pulled through this, just for being a good friend.  Seohyun, my sister my rock, I'm soooo sorry for causing you multiple sleepless nights and endless headaches. Even after all you've done for me and the people here. If I missed anyone, please know that I'm sorry.

Why am I sorry? Why am I apologizing. Because if it weren't for me he wouldn't be here, and all of this drama would have been avoided. If I could go back in time and change that day, the day I asked him to join, I would. But I can't. All I can do is say sorry. So for all that's happened. I'm disappointed in myself, very disappointed...

And all I can do is hope you guys will forgive me.

~Kim Jonghyun