The time has come. My hands have begun shaking. I can't get rid of the heavy feeling deep down in me. Somewhere in my heart/body I feel only stress and anxiety. It's so hard to ignore,I can't even

 

If I only

why am I not

How is he

Is he alright

Will he get hurt

I mean no

of course not

yes

maybe

will I ever

of course

when

when I'm ready

no,earlier

Will he accept me for who I am

does he care

yes

he does,he loves me already

but why

he loves everybody

is that enough

I don't know

How come nobody believes in me

I will succeed

I will make you proud

He's made me proud so many times

Everyday actually

It hurts

I can't imagine how he feels

Does he feel anxiety like I do

but worse

I hope not

no

no

no

he has to be happy

he can't lie 

right

he didn't

like I usually do

but this time I don't

I'm not alright

 

 

wait

that means

he's fine

 

God gave him the happiness I felt to him

Now he's happy

I'm not

but I can handle that

as long as he is happy

 

I wish