Have u ever felt so down....you thought nothing could bring you back up?

I'm feeling that right now....

I have everything....loving family....enough money.....great friends.....But why do I feel like this?

I know so many people out there suffer 10000 times more than me....

But there's this thing that always brings me down, it's something so strong that it barricades all the possibilities in my life and it brings me down to a point it's too painful....

I just wish there were people that understood me....

People try, I feel that, but I know they don't understand.....

And that's because I myself don't understand.....

I don't understand why such a thing can be so painful, why it takes all my strength away, why I can't fight it, why am I letting it rule my life.......

Why?.....Why?.........Why?................