It's been a while since an updated, it's sad really, since the one thing that kept me sane was my passion to write and create ideas and stories that my readers appreciate. Over the past year I have been dealing with a lot of things, depression, illness and a major responsible that wasn't mine to bare. In fact I have nothing in my life that is really mine apart my passion to draw, write, sing and dance but even knowing that my confidence always seems to shy anyway then I'm left with an empty feeling I can't seem to shake. But now is the time to change. I want to be able to finish these stories I've written not for anyone else but for me. I don't think of myself as a selfless or nice person, but it's hard to shake when people constantly tell me I am. But I still don't see myself as they do and maybe I never will. The so called 'awesome, intelligent, beautiful Mel' that everyone that knows me seems to see doesn't and hasn't never excited me, sad I know, but it just doesn't. But I would never tell anyone that. I would never tell anyone openly (Apart from my fiancé) how much I hurt inside, how much hate being me when I life it's not my mine own. But over the past ten years, I seem to bury the feelings inside because I function better that way. But now I want to see myself as everyone sees me and this is where I start. I've been starting to write again and continue do so being that my life has now drastically changed again this time for the better. I have a new job as a live in nanny, which will keep me busy during the week but also give me time to write like I use to. However Internet will only be available at the weekends so updates will be slow, but I write chapters in advance on paper (smart way really, especially with all these stupid cases of plagiarism, no one can steal my story and claim it has their own)... All my stories on here already have an ending, they always do. It was just hard filling in the gaps to get there, with life throwing things at my that break me apart. I thought I'd explain, my absence as I know there are many silent readers and subscribers waiting for next installments of one of my many stories. I thank you all for your patience and I'm sorry for not being good author and not being able to update as much. I don't mind you unsubscribing if the wait is too long as I know you've been waiting for a while. But regardless if you do, I will continue to write and finish my stories even if it takes me awhile but I'm not about to just give up, it's something I do, I'm a fighter and I will continue to fight as long as my heart continues to beat. AKTF ~{xxxKissTheAngelxxx}~ Melissa