Happy Birthday..to me../:

Well its that time of year again...every time on April 13th..once the clock strikes midnight..YEPP..it's my birthday..

 

I should feel happy that I just turned a year older & it's my "special day" but I honestly can't be happy about it.

 

Whats so special about your birthday when everybody has forgotten it? ):  Most of my family, I don't have a lot of friends coz I'm not popular, I just my Facebook back and it's just like it was before...I'm like invisible...

 

my friends threw me a surprise yesterday..i actually had a fun time but then it came to lowing at my candles & thought all the things I wished for(which will never come true because I dont in wishes or anything anymore /: ) and I'm relfecting them.

 

What I wished for:

  1. to have more friends (I'm friendly & nice but I'm shy)
  2. to be popular (because they always have so much fun yet, your popular coz you're considered "pretty"
  3. I wanna be prettier (people tell me to shut up coz I'm already "pretty" but I see myself in the mirror & ask "What the are they talking about?
  4. Have more self confidence & self-esteem. (I hate what society has turned into where you constantly have to compete to impress people.) I'm confident enough to go to school w/out make up on coz I hate it & people say I look like I wear some (eyeliner, mascara&acne free) I just hate the games we have to play.
  5. Be happy.
  6. And lastly. I hope the guy that I had a crush would finally come to his god damn senses and just ask me out. (Yesh. We probably all had wished that at least 1 time? I can't be the only one. We're friends..but idk anymore now, coz I texted him one time but he didn't reply sooo there goes my love life.)

Im sorry if I seem like a brat with this post. I'm not, to tell you the truth. I just always feel like nobody likes me, I'm not loved, or that I'm just annoying to other people. I just want my birthday to pass already instead of lying here on my bed crying. /:

 

Here's my facebook if you guys wanna add me or somethin..haha.. : http://m.facebook.com/#!/kelly.c.hansen.3?success=1&__user=100000847213915

If I'm still logged, please log me out :P

 

Thanks you guys

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damned_beast #1
Happy bday then..if you feel invisible then dont hiding yourself..its not imposible if people didnt get to you because they were afraid they will disturb your time because you are passive and not giving them a chance by just starting to say hi from you...people would respond to you mirroring with what you have done to them...chirpy? Detached? Intimate? Etcetc so before you said you are alone please ask the people first...I bet you alone is just your assumption since you dont open your heart...if you make an excuse you are a shy person then all the people around you also shy towards you...

This is just my 2 cents for people who felt always alone but they didnt aware many people actually care about them...open your heart and you know how real world is waiting for you to be their bright star. Put your shoes from their pov so you would felt better
chanyeolbby #2
Happy birthday.
Smile, it's better that way.
Moricchi #3
Happy birthday!!! And don't be so upset about the guy. My pen pal does the same thing, only he won't reply for days. He just wants to be left alone sometimes. Everyone feels that at least once, so don't say it's over already, okay? :)
am3thyst #4
your birthday is on 13th of April? so Happy Belated Birthday^^...I'm sorry for wishing it now...just log in...

pretty is subjective...you can't really point who's really pretty and who's not because not all people think the same...and you can't satisfy all...when someone told you that you're pretty that's mean you ARE pretty in their eyes and that's the truth...but it's worthless when you don't see it yourself, when you don't believe it in yourself...how many people required to tell you that you're pretty till you're convinced that you're indeed pretty? 100, 200 people?

dear, it's about the way you carry yourself...being confident, being grateful...and believe it in yourself and that's the only way others would see it too...and I'm telling you, those who are popular, they're popular is because they're so confident about themselves and it reflects on others...

and as a matter of being popular, It's something that wouldn't last...just makes lots of friends by being yourself...and search for true friends and numbers are really not necessary...because you can makes lots of friends, but those who stick with you in good and bad is hard to find...if you have several of those, you can set your heart at ease...^^

about your crush, maybe he's just a clueless dumb...men are all like that XD...
if you really like him, take a risk and tell him...but if you're too scared to lose him even as a friend, that might be a problem...

so, the main point is...just believe in yourself...build up a courage and boost your self esteem~ if you muster those, everything will come to you...
rolling_star #5
Well happy birthday! But don't be too hard on yourself, i bet you're a wonderful person and maybe there will a day where the you will meet better people.
But dude, i'm exactly like you. I'm so shy and introverted that makes me depressed at times. Actually i'm getting better but i'm still lonely T_T Ppl always tell me i'm pretty and should have higher self esteem but i'm like wtf is wrong with your eyes cause every time i look in the mirror, i think it cracks. And dear, everyone has a onesided crush one time in their life. But be thankful that you're actually friends with him. My crush doesn't even spare a glance at me :/ Just make the first move and talk to him. Don't be afraid or you'll probably regret it.
As for being popular, do you really have to be popular to be pretty? I saw your profile picture and you're gorgeous with a capital EVERYTHING. Being popular wouldn't exactly mean happiness either. When you're popular, your so called "friends" might not be your friends. I'm not popular AT ALL, but I have a lot of friends, both that i talk to a lot and sometimes talk to. I'm nowhere near popular but i have enough friends to satisfy my requirements. Maybe your wish isn't to be popular, it's just to have more friends. I know what you're thinking. No, it's not the same thing :P But still, you're 100% pretty and you sound like a sweetheart so I'm pretty sure you'll make a lot of friends in the future. People will appreciate you for who you are not your reputation or your looks.
But don't cry! Everyone has a great part in this world (except me cause i'm worthless OTL). So what if you're lonely? Spend the rest of your birthday with your family and don't worry about friends. You got a birthday party with your friends so you should be happy :D Just party hard by yourself and show yourself that sometimes being alone isn't so bad. Sometimes you just need space to yourself. But you're not annoying or anything.
Happy birthday again! live it to the fullest!
bethann591 #6
First of all, Kelly, Happy Birthday! I hope you have a great birthday even though it sounds like you have a lot of mixed feelings about it. I know how you feel - it's your birthday and you want to be the center of attention, right? But, your friends did surprise you! That was some love.. focus on that. You DO have those that love you in your life and that's what matters. Don't focus on trying to be popular. Popularity is very superficial. It only looks like everybody loves you but in the long run, those people aren't really your friends. Surround yourself with good people and those people will be there for you for life. I'm kind of old... but I found my best friends in high school and let's just say many (x5) years later, they are still my best friends. Why? Because I was more concerned about finding QUALITY people rather than QUANTITY of people. As far as boys go... grrrrl! They are so clueless! Even now, at this age, they are still dumb. I don't know what you sent him in that text. It could just be that he is not in to you, or it could be that he didn't know he was supposed to respond. Boys are like that. If he likes you, he'll find a way to let you know. If you like him, I think it's okay for you to let him know. And if he turns you down you can say, "Well, you're no Jay Park, but I thought I'd at least give you a shot". Hehehe! Juuuuuust kidding! If he's not in to you, it's okay too. There are going to be plenty of boys that make you go crazy in the future. Just wait till you get to college!
And girl you are beautiful! Don't kid yourself! Just because you aren't all dolled up and fake looking doesn't mean you aren't pretty! You should definitely listen to your friends more often! I don't know what would help you improve your self confidence because everyone goes through phases in their lives where they feel unsure about themselves. I think it's a very personal thing and only you can decide to feel good about yourself. Best of luck, Kelly! Hwaiting!!
midnightcool #7
Hey happy birthday! My birthday is in a month from today :)
xxkevkeyxx #8
Happy birthday!
KKyungMi #9
First of all HAPPY B-DAY! YO!
even when i don't know you i hope you have fun in that little surprise your friends gave you. i'm reall agree with RoxanaDevon..
You see.. i'm like.. old haha not actually i'm 26, but yeah.. i know now..that.. there are only a few friends in te world.. i have been through a lot of things wich i don't wanna remember right now, but i realised that is not about have a lot of friends.. it's about how many of that people stays with you an suport you while you're down. I'm pretty sure a popular person doesn't have that... because that person's friend most of them are with that person just because that person might be cool or is pretty, but not because they really love her/him as a real friend.

Just focus in yourself, love yourself more that ANYTHING in this life, because at the end you can only depend on you. you just gotta believe and i know that sounds to "everyone says that..." but yeah.. believe it.. because is true..
i guess that's all i gotta say!
ILuvTaeyang99 #10
Happy Birthday! Keep a smile on your face :)
RoxanaDevon #11
happy birthday!i want to tell you to don't worry about these things,as you grow older you'll realise that it's not about the number of friends we have but about what they make us feel.I think you have to be more confindent,i don't know you but i am sure you're a nice person.Fame,popularity come and go,but true friendship never dies.Soooooo pick yourself up!You're the best thing that happened in your life!Never forget that!Believe it with all your heart,even when those that surround you fail to notice!May you have a wonderful year!
sujushipper #12
happy birthdayy <3
BunniUnni #13
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ^___^
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