health & beauty
Lol hey y'all. I'm in Vegas right now for this spring break, but I'm going to be leaving on Monday. Me & my little sister got stuck with watching the babies, while the adults try to go out & gamble, but seriously my mom loses lots of money usually. The internet connection for YouTube tho, I was planning to watch the kmw in Bangkok. So I'm trying to start this blog post, while the whole mama album is playing on my phone(yes, I illegally downloaded the whole album keke, but I have the actual album too).
I'm staying at the new York New York hotel, & luckily a view of their roller coaster lol. This morning I walked with my family to the bellagio buffet. I ate like a pig, their breakfast selection is rather unhealthy. So I ate scrambled eggs, bacon, mashed potatoes, & prime rib. So delicious right? Well I've been dieting, so I felt extremely guilty after, I ate sugar free dessert then. I still felt bad, so I ate cantaloupes & watermelon after, I don't think I ate enough. I then took the strawberries & rubbed it on my teeth, since they are a natural whitener.
Went to the garden after. Took a couple pictures. My little sister took a couple of full body pics of myself. I looked at all of them, & deleted all of them, I didn't think they were pretty/I wasn't satisfied with how I looked. Felt self conscious walking back to the hotel room. I saw lots of tall skinny people, most of them were American though. I was looking particularly chunky that day, it could've been the clothes I was wearing, or I'm actually fat, or I'm just so short that my body mass is compressed or something.
I'm totally changing my diet, but it's kinda hard, since I'm a kid & I actually don't shop for my own ingredients. I've been looking at kpop star diets, snsd's in particular, Brown rice, grilled chicken , broccoli, & sometimes sweet potatoes, but only a minimal amount. I actually asked my mum if I could buy salad when we get back from break. She said no, I was like, what the actual flip. I kept persisting her & asking why, she gave in & said, we'll see. My mother always buys junk food, since my siblings love them, even my bb bro loves to eat lays lol. My siblings are really skinny too, to add to my burning jealousy, my big brother's actually underweight, my little sister's skinny as , her legs are like sticks.
Sorry guys for the rant. Btw I am 15, 4'10", & 102lbs. If you guys have any tips on height, that'd be great. On the upside, seems like they have a korean cosmetics place in the springtown plaza here, depends if my mom wins money OTL. Also sorry for any grammar mistakes, using a Samsung galaxy note 2 & it's not letting me swipe well.
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