Don't know how many of you will see this and care, but here goes my blabber. Author-nim loves to blabber.

Don't worry, I'm not about to write a farewell post here. I did once think of leaving this website forever, but I can't do it. I've realised that if I had nothing to do, I'd write and write. So I might as well just leave this account here so I can continue writing.

Anyways, I am a little tired of writing nonetheless. Of course, I have other things and hobbies to do in my day-to-day life. Writing up these fanfics is one of my hobbies, but it isn't the same anymore.

My first fanfic, and it's still on-going, is "6 Precious Months". It must be the same for all of you: You can't meet the idols, so you daydream about them, and you put them into your own little world. Last summer I came across a few fanfics so that my imagination could run wild. I came across some really good ones and ended up crying for some of the sad ones. Basically, coming across those fanfics left a huge impact on me. I always had a story running through my head, which is basically what "6 Precious Months" is reflecting on. Then, I started writing oneshots, and I came up with 3 rather short ones. As I wrote more stories, and read more, my imagination wouldn't stop running and the ideas came like bambambam one after the other. So I started on two other chaptered fanfics other than "6 Precious Months". I found out that they were merely to satisfy readers and also a test of my own skill at something new. More or less, it isn't the same anymore. 

But I do love writing.

I'm not one of the best writers out there. Perhaps I should read more. I'm happy, more than anything, from all the support fellow readers and subs have given me throughout my time on AFF. It's cool. 

I think my imagination has stopped running though. The last idea I came up with was in February. It's starting to slow down. 

I'm deciding on removing my two latest chaptered fanfics: "The Resistance" and "Droplets of Blood". The plots in my mind that I have for these two are really interesting imo, and they're very different from anything I've written before. But the problem is, I don't know if I'll be able to convey my ideas in a story. I always feel like I mess up everything once it's all written down. So depending how my summer holiday goes (starts in May, ends August), I may or may not remove those two fanfics mentioned above.

On another note, I'm trying to take this hobby a little more serious. I really want to brush up on my writing and plotting. I want to improve as a writer. I am the age of an adult now, 18, and I wish to write more mature stories that'll leave a great impact on the reader. I don't know if I can do this, but I'll give it my all. I've started on a new lengthy oneshot called "Evanescent", and it is a Krisyeol fanfic. It's going to take me a while to complete, since I'm taking this as my 'big project'. In the meantime, I will continue on with "6 Precious Months" once university year is over (~1 month). Another 'big project' that I've gathered ideas for will be a Hunhan fanfic, but I will not reveal the title yet. I don't even know if I'll write and complete it.

So I guess good news and bad news? 

As I said, I'll see how everything goes and decide later on whether or not I'll remove "The Resistance" and "Droplets of Blood". 

Thank you for everyone's support :) You guys make my day <3