call me cruel.. heck call me a murderer if you want.. i just need to get this off my chest.

Ever wished someone or even yourself wasn't even born? I have a good few times but it isn't gonna change anything.

Ok so onto the rant.

My friend has a baby who is coming up 2 years old in a matter of months. I love the baby to pieces but she can be a handful. Especially when you feel that you're only good for one thing and it seems your parents ignore you... ._. Honestly, I have wished a few rimes that the baby wasn't born.. well in my head.. but in my defence I think it could just make everyones lives easier.H

eck, right now I wish I had died in my mothers womb. It seriously would be easier if I wasn't around. I wouldn't feel ignored, I wouldn't feel useless and I wouldn't be bullied. But unfortunately that would never happen.

Because I exist.

You're all gonna judge me now for this. I don't really care to be honest. I just really needed to say this.

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Minzy21 #1 Mar 26, 2013 19:06:05

I don't know you but cheer up! I hate seeing people like this, just take life lightly and learn how to find people who will accept you and treat you in a good way ^^

-Angela-Zhang- #2 Mar 24, 2013 14:45:41

Ah...I know how you feel.
It's okay though, to wish that your friend's baby wasn't born sometimes ^^ That's totally normal. Young children are often a lot of trouble to look after and it probably seems a little pointless to do so sometimes, because there just...well... there. Like they just seem to take and take and take without giving anything back to the society or to the people who are looking after them, which is probably a little irritating.
But I guess there is a time for everything eventually they won't be so needy and you can look at them as a functioning human being/young adult who actually responds to you. Maybe try thinking of them as a "person", instead of a "baby". Using age-neutral terms like that often help dispell annoyance and negative feelings you might have towards someone.
I think a lot of people often feel that life would be better if they simply weren't alive and that such feelings are ones that continue on throughout life. Try to focus on things that you value and that you feel good about, though and find value in life from there. Take things like a learning experience- bullying isn't good, but sometimes, having been bullied can help us be more compassionate to others in the future. And some people who are constantly the center of attention might sometimes wish that people would ignore them more often.
Maybe take your feelings of isolation as an opportunity to develop and explore your own values and principles. <3

photographic #3 Mar 24, 2013 13:50:26

I feel you , junsu ;-;

placebograce #4 Mar 24, 2013 12:27:07

aigooo Moo!!! :( i'm with you honey... <333333 don't be so stressed!! It's life, ____ happens...