OK SO, HEELLLOOO THERE YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!! XOXO 

You might get bored reading this so yeah, but i just need to say it anyway. 

SO, today was NON-UNI in school, so everyone went out to buy clothes on wednesday cause it was teacher training day so we had no school, I however had to stay at home like the lazy tramp i am. I know i say I don't care, and I don't care. That much, 

But ever since recently. 

I've felt really ... Poor. I mean my cousins and close friends are like, 'My mums buying me this.' 'I buying this I'm buying that' Blah blah, and my friend's and people that i know have bought stuff that i've been dieing TO GET. Like a fujifilm camera, all that shizzle, 

I mean first off. I HARDLY go town, cause my mums always ill and then i have to go with my aunties, then i feel bad cause i'm probably disturbing them. I'm not really that spoilt, compared to all my cousins I'm probably the least spoilt in fashion sense. My dads at work, and he's so lazy that he can't drop me off. My bro doesn't even care, if i ask him to get me something he completely forgets. My sis, well she'd probably take me but she's not here and i don't really like her all that much. (Don't even ask why.) and well I don't like disturbing people, so even if i do go town with aunties, I'll probably get one IMPORTANT thing that has nothing to do with fashion. Just health care, 

And not just that, but like I hear alot of my friends and cousins say that 'I'm gonna tell my dad to buy me those shoes for like £25' or ' £25 nothing!" I'm there like O.O 

What the . £25 for me is like spending over £50 on a ONE chocolate bar. I don't know if its cause I've become REALLY picky with money. 

AND! Ok, this might just be my hormones, but alot of my friends/cousins were wearing such pretty clothes and theres me looking like the biggest tramp ever. I just felt so ugly, and fat and Urg. 

Not to mention two of my close cousins have really nice figures. One of them has like contacts from people from brummy and people want to add her cause she's so pretty and she sort of shows off with it. My other cousin sort of does the same and she was rubbing it in my face cause theres this REALLY GOOD LOOKING GUY! in like and OH.MY.GOSH. Hes the only guy that i find REALLY good looking and my cousin was rubbing it in my face that she bumped into him and how everyone was starring at her, and i just feel so AAHHHHH!!!!! 

*ROARS DRAGOM FIRE.* I'm going to die a fat, homless lady with cats. Wallpaper of Korea and EXO, and SHINee and other people, and I'm gonna be a tramp that watches anime for the rest of her life. and i feel so ... 

:'( :'( :'( 

Sorry for wasting your time.