I never thought I would, but I did. I saw my aunt lost her voice last year and I was wondering how it was possible. Now I know *sighs* Yesterday I was losing my voice. Today, I lost my voice. No, it wasn’t because of sore throat (everyone asks me if it was because of that). It’s because of cough. I’ve never had cough this bad and this long. It’s been one week since I first had them. At first it was mild, then came flu (wasted 16 tissues per hour at school one day), then cough came back, worse than before. I coughed so hard that three/four days ago, my uterus hurt— unheard of, huh? Don’t ask me why, it’s my body that made me feel that— and my abdomen have been hurting every time I cough ever since 2-3 days ago. Together with my loss of voice, my eyes are also making mischief. It’s red, sore, watery and emits a lot of… stuff. A lot of them. Seriously.

I find odd that even though I’ve been sick for a week, I still go to school. Every single day. I actually didn’t know that it would last this long at first. I thought it was just a normal cough and in a matter of a few days I would be cured naturally but no, it wasn’t. It was a virus infection, said the doctor when I went for consultation today (after a week being sick only then I’ll go meet the doctor). I know I should feel guilty because I might be spreading my virus to my whole class, school and all its visitors this past week (we had a lot, thanks to my reputable school) but hey, luckily, no one was infected. Those who did were only one or two who’s really close to me, and they didn't have it as bad as I do. I have a friend who skipped school for the whole week because she’s sick and I look at myself and feel like I’m a bit too hardworking. Idk. And she said that my cough sounded worse than hers when I called her.

I also find it ironic that I lost my voice when Infinite is making their comeback. Yesterday even when my voice was still there, I couldn’t sing. It was agonising not being able to sing. ;A; And today, I can’t even fangirl or spazz about them to my non-Kpop friends (they don’t hate and just listen. Been trying to infect one). I can’t sing, scream when it’s their comeback stage on Music Bank (bad camerawork *facepalm*) and I can’t speak properly to others! I was whispering the whole day and it feels odd. I had to write down what I wanted to say or use sign language.

Now, my voice is returning. But, my voice sounds horrible. I sound worse than a crow plus a goose, and it’s as if I came out from a horror movie. I could easily make the sound effect of a monster emerging from its slumber searching for food. Ugh. Two days ago my friend told me I sounded really unlike me. She was saying it was like talking to someone else, not me. Imagine what she would say if I called her today. I would sound like an alien to her. Ugh.