First of all, I wrote a Writer's Depression blog before this entry but I want you to know that I'm not sad or depressed because of my haters. I'm just simply sad over the fact that I'm so busy and stressed in real life that I haven't been able to write fics.

Now to move on to what this entry is really about... I learned about asiafanficsconfessions in tumblr just today and look...

http://affconfessions.tumblr.com/tagged/jishubunny

I have a tag!!! Hahaha!!! It has 2 entries on it and sadly, they're hate entries. ^^;; Well, it can't be helped.

I'm not angry with the entry about hating Suicide Diary. I understand their point of view. I could try to reason myself out, but I don't want to argue anymore because it's not going to change the fact that they don't like the fic.  I just hope they won't completely judge me as a writer base on Suicide Diary alone because I've written over 200 fics and most of them are nice and happy ones.  Also, I have promised to myself not to touch the issue of suicide in my fics unless it's a completely realistic one because obviously, they didn't like my fantasy one ^^;;

What made me angry is the entry saying that I'm "ugh" and "desperate much"   Did she even read my entire blog entry about it? Here's my blog entry for those who haven't read it. AFF EXO FANFIC AWARDS 2012  

Maybe it seems like  "desperate much" for her but I prefer the term, "strategy" =P  Besides, it's not cheating.  "Cheating" would clearly be defined as desperate much.  I have asked permission if I could "advertise" or ask people to nominate for me and they said it's fine.  If it was against the rules in the first place, I wouldn't have done it.

So I made the blog entry. It was simply to suggest the fics and categories to what I wished to be nominated for. I did the copy&paste thing to simply make it easier for them so that they don't have to type it all.  That's really all there is to it.

If you look at those who nominated some of my fics, they nominated me the way they wanted to like changing the category and simply not copy pasting all the fics I suggested.  Some just nominated one or two fics.

Before I made that blog, somebody had already nominated one of my fics as well.

What I would like to define "desperate much" would be to post on people's walls one by one and telling them to nominate for me or heck, threaten/blackmail them to nominate for me and also if it is against the rules (which apparently is NOT so I ain't cheating)  Also, I clearly wrote on my blog that I'm not forcing anyone to nominate for me (like how can I force someone to do that anyway?) 

You know what else would be "desperate much" ? That would be suggesting "ALL" of my EXO fics which I certainly didn't do.

 If you're going to ask me why I didn't bother to nominate someone else, it's because they have already been nominated by other people and I'm sure they're going to get in the contest because they're really good fics and authors~ <3

Anyway, I may have a lot of friends and subcribers here but it's not like all of them read my blog you know. Besides, even if I'm nominated, it's still not a sure win or if I'll even be entered in the finals or something like that.

One more thing is that being nominated is also like advertising which I'm certainly using to my advantage. "Strategy"

Saying desperate much is too much. (Rhyming! I just wrote a poem! Kidding~)

Despite all these blabbering, the person who wrote that post would probably still say "desperate much" Hahahaha!!!   That's okay. I only needed to vent out my anger at the moment.  Come tomorrow, I'll probably just laugh about why I'm even bothering to defend myself to someone's mind who I probably can't change anyway~ ^^