Just in case you don't know, my name is Camilla... After not crying for a long time, it almost feels foreign. Almost like it's not supposed to happen. The feeling of not crying makes oneself feel happy and proud that they didn't have to go through the pain of feeling broken. But once that phase is over, the first drop that falls from your eyes would soon be followed by more. The feeling of your throat clamping together and feeling like something's going to burst through you any second. The last thing before bawling your eyes out is you thinking. Thinking of the person who caused you to be in this mess. The last person who you would think would cause the mess you're currently in. The person you want to talk to about the problems relating to that person but can't. Your breath gets more uneven as you remember that person smiling at you and those moments you would treasure forever. Now you're smiling. Smiling because your remembrance caused you to finally realize how much of a fool you really were. Your breathing comes to a steady halt as you close your eyes. Tears still spilling as you cast away into the first dreamless sleep you had in awhile.  Don't be brainwashed. -Camilla