So, referring to my other blog post titled, 'Srsly need help', I asked my mom once again about KMF, & she shot me down again. She vehemently doesn't want me going to KMF or any other concert for that matter. She's persistent & I'm pretty sure that every time I ask her I'm going to get rejected. This kinda made me depressed, since I was looking forward to this like crazy, & I made a plan for when I was gonna go there. I got really pissed too.

Later on in the night, I also started thinking about how my mother treats my siblings(older bro near college, lil sis graduating elementary, bb bro turned 3). My lil sis & older bro are grounded. My lil sis for procrastinating all the time & my big bro for skipping 1st period for a week or 2. So no electronics. My lil sis later on in the night, was allowed to go on her friggin samsung note for an hour(the samsung note is bomb, all koreans use it apparently, I have a crappy g1, go figure), I was going to use her phone after she was done, but then my big bro then gets allowed an hour too. So I'm like wtf. Like everybody is trying to flip me off.

Upon seeing these actions I started thinking that my mother is only strict on me, but why? I also recently got pretty high scores on my exams in earth science(my worst subject) & I made a bet with her, that if I got high scores, that she'll give me money/buy me stuff. She said we'll see. Didn't get anything. And whenever we have a load of chores, my lil sis somehow ends up staying at a relative's house & I end up doing her chores. I do laundry & dishes, my lil sis cleans the living room, my big bro takes out trash & sometimes vacuums. I do my chores like every day. Idk why but sometimes I just get stuck with my siblings' chores. Looking back, I once had to take out the trash, in place of my big bro, for a month, not sure why though.

My lil sis is pretty spoiled, when my father brought the samsung note home, she asked for it & got it. She also HAS TO HAVE takis(those spicy chips) everyday after school, but she's really skinny still, idk how, I envy that. My big bro is very quiet, doesn't talk much, likes indie music, manga, anime, & video games. He's pretty nice too, but he's lethargic & sometimes when he's pissed he uses reverse psychology & says thanks a lot, & talks very sarcasticly. He also has a mini cooper, thanks to my parents. My mom also bought him a lenovo laptop for $900 a few years ago. I was stuck with a hand me down, msi notebook, can't use it anymore, the charger broke for like the 10th time(seriously), it since I've been using it for years & all my files are on there. I should be learning how to drive soon, but my parents say I shouldn't because I won't have a car. When I was younger, my mom used to say I had 2nd-child syndrome, as in I wouldn't get paid much attention. If only my mother knew how hard I try.

I love my dad, he's a typical asian dad, but he drinks & smokes quite a lot, so I'm afraid he'll pass early. We sometimes share interests though, but he has a huge friggin soft spot for my lil sis(he's the one who buys her takis). Another thorn in my side.

I really wanted to go to KMF because I never really get to go out, unless with my family. My mother is overprotective & strict as . She's sorta the reason why I have no social life, when my friends at school go out, they don't even invite me, since they know I don't really go out. Most of my close friends are online or from the internet, even my korean penpals. The only thing I do, besides school, is go on the internet, I like live on the computer. Seriously you guys are like the best thing in my life, you guys are my stars(kyungsoo is my special snowflake). You guys mean a lot to me. I even told one of my friends about the that happened above, & she offered to write a for me. But thanks guys for commenting on my previous blog post to help me, it was also fun seeing some of my favorite authors comment.