Sometimes you feel an impeccable sadness dwelling deep in your heart. The feeling isn’t from today, nor yesterday, nor the day before that. You don’t know when it was from but it hits you like a train and suddenly you stop what your doing and think about anything and everything you’ve done wrong. The littlest things become the worst mistakes and the worst mistakes become your living nightmare.

It pulls your heart into a void of black that swallows you up like an infinite hole in space. Your thoughts trip and your mind takes the plunge into oblivion. It’s a horrible feeling when your fingers tremble with barely held back fear and every time you exhale your chest shudders like someone’s hit you. You try your hardest to stop the tears when your in front of people, and when your alone you can’t help but let those few droplets of poison trail down your cheeks and soak into you skin.

Episodes like these can range from minutes to weeks, and when they do happen you want to shrivel up, cry, and latch on to anyone who seems like they care enough.

Only, you realize no one does and you shut the door to your mind for good. No one’s going to help, and you understand that fact.