Ok..

because I am bored right now at my office.. I begin searching about supernatural stuffs..
Not that I wanna see ghosts or what.. just that.. I am fascinated by the topic of Spiritual Guides.

I really want to make friends with my spiritual guardians.

I believe I do have at least one with me.

It's hard to believe to some of you.. but...

Lol.. idk how to explain but I think .. I may have some psychic abilities.. but hopefully I didn't lose them completely..

Because I had once denied it because I couldn't handle the stress it gave me..

Note: This is not something off a fanfic or something for my fanfic!!! It's 100% truth!!

I don't know if this is pass down by my father family side ..but..

You see my father side relatives do have such psychic abilities.

One of my aunt is a medium. But not your normal kind of medium. Only one specific 'spirit' .. Hmm calling him spirit is too.. actually he is a deity.

The deity, through my aunt helped alot of people. I believe it's real because of some things /lazy to specify/

Then another of my aunt, she has what people commonly call, the 'third eye '.

Ok, about my dad .. when he was little, he dreams of travelling up to the heaven and exploring the place. And he always dreamt of the same place.

After many years passed by, he once again dreamt of that place . And the funny thing is that the place looked aged like how he had aged too.

He has quite a number of ghostly encounters too.

Now, to me.. I think I've inherited some of this psychic abilities.

When I was younger, (let's say around 15?) I used to participate in contests and winning (lucky draws for concert tickets and sort

I remembered my first win was for a private party ticket for Fahrenheit.

Subsequently, I joined other contests and sometimes I would win too.

The latest one I won.. I can't remember was it Super Junior related or what..

Which is a few years ago.

I don't know is it because I asked for it to stop or because I've grown up.

Around afew years ago, I had a dream . I dreamt that the deity from my aunt spoke to me through a phone call telling me my grand aunt(At that time staying in an old folks home) had passed away.

Of course I woke up crying and telling my parents about it.

Around a few months later, around the Chinese New Year's Eve. I received a phone call from my grandaunt's old folks home informing me that my grandaunt had passed away.

Ok skipping the parts.. After the funeral, I dreamt of my grandaunt.

In my dream I know she had passed away.We enjoyed the time happily with her.

Then I saw the black & white ghost (underworld soldiers that brings the spirits to the underworld in Chinese folklore ) they wanted to bring my grandaunt back.

I refused to let them take my grandaunt away. And then my grandaunt turned ill. She couldnt get up from the bed and fell in to the coma state like she did before she passed on.

Then I realized, that it's really time for her to go. So I agreed to let her go.

And the amazing thing happened. Her face, from the pained look, changed to a peaceful smile.

I watched the spirits bring her away. And I felt that she feels happier that way.

When i woke up, I was crying.

So I related my dream again to my parents. My mum cried along with me.

Then recently.. I had another dream about the deity telling me that my grandmother 's time is soon gonna be up.

I cried and beg him not to bring her away from me (both my grandaunt and grandmother stays with me eversince I was born.. actually even before I was born. They stayed with my mum since she was a kid. So the emotional attachment is very very strong )

I woke up crying and I kept begging in my heart not to take her away from me.

I told my mum about it and she starts to cry. Because she is the only relative my mum is left with in this world (not counting my mum's biological family because we didnt even see them before)

I begged for all these dreams to stop because I really don't want to know about it.

so recently, my grandma fell really ill. And yes. The deity through my aunt told us that my grandmother time is gonna be up soon.

I felt really horrible and wanted all my psychic thingy to stop because I am afraid of knowing when will it happen.

Till now I am afraid that my grandma will go any time.

My whole family told me to let her go..Because she is suffering .(They believed it's because I can't let go That's why she is still.. hanging on ) But.. how to? Its easier to say then to do it.

Although, I wanted to have all my .. you know.. luck? (Idk what should I call that)

But I am afraid of the part about my so called 'predictions ' dreams.

But I like some of my dreams though..

Example: If I dream of attending any concerts/fanmeets. I will really be able to attend them. Or if I dreamt of meeting any idols, I will really meet them.

(And I really like this part of my dream. Because I dreamt that I will be attending SS5 recently. so ... ^v^ V)

Ok, I shall stop my random post and shall bathe early (I just got home ^^) Then I shall try and meditate and see if I could communicate with my spiritual guardian ^^