I got surgery on my ankle yesterday

no one could pick me up from the hospital so Adam came instead

He drove me to his band rehersal area so I could rest and watch his band play for a bit

halfway through their practice Mark showed up out of no where with a bunch of his friends

of course Emily was with him since she recently became his girlfriend

a match made in hell

while Mark and his friends were chatting with Adam, Emily came over to me

she pulled away the chair that was holding up my cast so my foot slammed against the ground

I could help but let out a yelp of pain

Adam saw Emily bugging me so he came over to see what was going on

Emily (being the f___ing psychopath that she is) said that I was the one bugging her

Mark got all pissed at me and slapped me

Adam and Mark then got into a fight while Emily just watched from the sidelines

Adam's friend Matt (and the guy who has a crush on me) ended up having to call the cops

Nothing happened after that as we all sort of ran away

Adam got a broken nose and had to end up going to the hospital

My older brother ended up picking me up

once again he wasn't thrilled that I was spending time around Adam

Adam didn't do anything wrong

it was all Mark and Emily

they're psycho

but yet my family is now blaming Adam for putting me through that

I feel guilty

I shouldn't have asked Adam to pick me up from the hospital

I should have taken the bus or something

now my family doesn't like him and he's hurt because of me

I've locked myself away in my room again

I ignore all the calls and texts I get

I feel guilty

Adam keeps texting me to see if I'm alright

I should be the one asking him that

I always seem to cause him trouble

I'm not worth it

I've broken his heart

I've made him deal with being around someone with cancer

I've forced him out of my life

I've got him fighting with people who use to be his friends

and for what?

So we can end up together?

is it worth it?

I know I'm not worth it

I've done more harm than good

I feel guilty