First time blogger...bare with me.

Hmm...not sure what to say exactly for I am never good with introductions. I'll start with what is recently happening in my life. I recently graduated from high school, make it a private, Catholic, All-Girl school. Enough said. They say that high school is suppose to prepare you for college but i feel that it is only half a lie. Do they prepare you for accepting rejection from your dream school or the fact you will probably not see any of your close friends anymore. Sure, we have time with graduation parties and summer but at that time people are still caught up with themselves. Call me immature and that this is just a phase everyone goes through. Change is suppose to be good for you. Sure....that's what they are suppose to tell you. I'm the typical shy, asian girl, who loves to day dream and is too nice for her own good. Sure, i have been used, played, and proably disliked by my personality but i can't help that. I'm not saying i'm weak and can't stand up for myself but i choose not to fight with others for it seems pointless. But thats besides the point. I'm talking about life right now.

Maybe it's because i'm finally a step closer to adulthood. In my parents eyes, i'm practically an adult. If some of you don't know, i'm filipino. In filipino culture, when girls turn 18, they automatically viewed as adults. Heck, i still feel like a kid and they automatically assume i'm an adult just because of my age. But this is life, i need to stop hiding and start to move forward. But moving forward is such a huge step, i may need a little push...tehee.

Recently my cousin got rejected from nursing school. She was crushed and felt like 'blah' in life. She did not have a plan b or a plan c. She was scared and nervous for she had worked so hard in getting in. Just by a simple letter telling her that she was rejected, crushed her dreams deeply. I remember checking on her every day for she wasn't acting her normal self. Looking at her, made me realize how life can be cruel. Thinking that this could be me one day, scared the jeepers out of me. Sure, i had passing grades and did some community service. I was just average and nothing special. While she, she had all A's with a scholarship for college as well as an active volunteer. I was nothing compared to her, what gives me any chance in making it in the real world? 

But then recently, I read an article about my favorite idol group, DongBangShinki. Well, it was partially about them for it only taled about t3 of the five men; Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong. (Always keep the faith) The article talked about the meaning of one of their pictures in their pictorial. It was about them covering one eye. In korean there is a phrase "don't sell half of your eye" meaning don't look at others....believe in yourself. Reading that spark a little light inside me. You could say it helped me realize to not be caught up with others and focus on myself. Believing in oneself rathering comparing to others will help me get through in life. It may sound cliche but it really does help...sort-of. Maybe it is the optmistic side of me wanting to believe everything will be ok. Hey, i'm not changing anytime soon. I still have the fan-girl craz-i-ness inside me still.

 Realizing the fears i had because the things that happened in her life, doesn't automatically mean my life will turn out the same way. Sure, there is a chance for me to not get everything i want in my college experiece but that is just part of life. There is always a way to make your dreams come true. Even if it takes me years to do, i'm willing to take the chance. We only have one life, make the best of it. I have a huge list in all the things i wanted to do in life and college is just part of it. Until i see my five handsome boys, i can't say i have lived. (Far fetch i must say...let me dream)

Until then...i'll post again on what random problems pop into my life.

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