i can't even be on fb right now. i dont wanna know what everyone is saying. everyone kept posting  pictures and stuff and then some people even say i should be happy blah blah. duh of course i don't want him to be alone or be lonely.. but i don't wanna see him kiss some girl either.. 

why am i crying like a baby over a guy i can never have. this is so stupid and pointless and my life is just retarded right now. I feel like an idiot. 

I can't go on tumblr cause again it is just picture after picture and i dont wanna see that . 

i can't really go anywhere. I am just afraid of what everyone is saying. people are either feeling sorry for me or thinking im a fool. i cant deal with either. 

I suppose I should go work on my art or idk