i was younger when i wrote this...i don't remember how old i was but i just found it in my documents...it is/was really tough figuring out who i was/am but yeah here, you guys may read ^^ i don't mind, this isn't me anymore C:.  

d e a d   and  a l o n e (f i n d i n g   m y s e l f)

m y h e a r t d e a d  and b r o k e n

m y b o d y s t i l l n o t to be w o k e n

t e a r s f i l l m y e y e s for I a m a l o n e

this b r o k e n h e a r t is a s c o l d a s s t o n e

w h y a m I l i k e t h i s w i l l I e v e r b e o k a y

 i a m s i l e n t now f e a r i n g the l i g h t of d a y

c r y i n g b l e e d i n g w i l l I e v e r s t o p t h i s p a i n

s i t t i n g w o n d e r i n g  w h o a m I a l o n e in the r a i n

y e a r n i n g to b e m e t r a p p e d i n t h i s s h e l l

w i l l s o m e o n e f i n d m e and p u l l m e a w a y  f r o m m y h e l l

i ’ m  d y i n g t r y i n g to f i n d o u t w h o I a m

l o o k i n g a t t h e h o u r g l a s s  w a s t e d t i m e is t h e s a n d

i g o t o t h e m i r r o r a n d l o o k i n t o h e r e y e s

s h e l o o k s a t m e a n d m o c k s m e h e r e y e s I  v e r y m u c h d e s p i s e

s h e s a y s y o u d on ’ t  k n o w m e , I  c a n t i d e n t i f y  h e r s o u l

s h e i s p a l e a n d s a d f o r s h e i s m y u n a c h i e v e d g o a l

l o s t i n t h i s w o r l d w e s e a r c h a l o n e i n o u r o w n d i m e n s i o n

s c r e a m i n g d y i n g b l e e d i n g a l o n e with o n l y n e g a t i v e a t t e n t i o n

i w a n t to f i n d h e r f o r s h e i s  a f t e r a l l  m e

i p r o m i s e  w h e n w e m e e t i t w i l l b e a s i g h t t o s e e

i h a v e n o i d e a w h a t y o u a r e s o m e t i m e s  I t h i n k I s e e

b u t l a t e r o n I l o s e y o u and n o t i c e t h a t y o u ’ v e d e c e i v e d m e

m y h e a r t i s d e a d I a m b r o k e n and I a m l o s t a n d a l o n e

i a m l e a v i n g on a j o u r n e y t o f i n d m y s e l f o n m y o w n